I can't say I'd do things differently if I could go back in time since I most likely wouldn't know some people I know now, but stupid things I did in the past are eating me up inside every day.

1. Being stupid on social media. Posting corny things on Snapchat, thinking I was funny. Venting and ranting on Facebook about personal problems. I was in a bad place mentally, and I felt like I had no one to talk to. Even though I've grown, the damage's been done. Those people probably still think of me as just an angry, annoying, pathetic loser.
2. Wasting so much time and energy on people who didn't care about me. Going out of my way for them. Trying so hard to impress them when they were never going to care.
3. Not trying in school. I know better now and I actually have a real incentive other than money to appreciate my field now, but it seems like so much time has been wasted. I could have accomplished so much more. Education is everything to my family since they didn't grow up having much. It's the one thing they expect of me. It hurts, and I always feel like a failure to them even though I'm trying to finish this thing up.

the p*** i coom to

the impending end of the human race lol

nothing at this point and i’m f***ing grateful

depression

this too lol

tbh

Epstein

I’ll never be able to f*** Chiara Sampaio

Used to fret that this world will go to complete s***s soon but I’m not worried. I hope it does.

Well I’m still in love with this man that hurt me. He led me on into thinking he loved me but he didn’t. I can’t stop loving him. He’s in a relationship with someone better than me. I’ll never ever get over him. I get sad once a day thinking about him. I’ll never have him.

that I push people that I like away, I've hurt way too many people, and it hurts when you care about them.

been told I have no feelings and that I'm a sociopath, a****** etc... but thats not true I've got too many feelings. and I feel so guilty, I wish I could let them all know that they weren't the problem, I was.

I hate myself so much and I don't think i will ever be able to stop

Then stop acting like a wreck toeards the people you love. It sounds harsh because it is. It aint too late & it all starts @ doing what’s actually best flr you

the third point I'm doing right now. I feel like I could do so much better in university if I actually cared

Most of the time I'm just bored and too lazy to do work until a few days before exams. I don't even attend regularly.

Everything

My energy

Not being able to find a job in my s***ty city. The job hunting process is soul eating and and horrible.

I can't stop winning and its killing me

I know, been this way for 5 years so it takes time to change. But i'm working on it, been slowly improving on letting friends and girls back in.

But if I get feelings for a girl I start to treat her like s***. and I hate it.

Not knowing what career I want, feeling like my youth is over, feeling like i’m wasting time doing things I enjoy, feeling like nobody cares about the things I make, feeling bad for my ex every time I try to move on and in turn ruining my chances with other girls

Man I’m really going through it in 2019.

the time i waste

Good work recognizing and tryna heal 💪🏾 stop engaging w these females then tho 🙅🏽‍♂️

damn