Recent anxiety attacks/ thoughts of suicide and the staff around me are doing things that inadvertently make it worse.
Also my roommate being a generic white country conservative and an overall dumbass when it comes to politics and race
****ed a girl I was cool with before but after it happened she didn't want to be more and as stupid as I am sometimes and I read too much into things she got hella mad. After a few weeks later we went to a party together with some other friends, we got high on ecs and we had a great talk.
But whenever we went to the same party I got my feelings back for her for a lil amount of time. We really was vibing together and I am afraid I won't find another b**** like her.
Lack of purpose, feels pretty f***ing dumb to be expected to live for 60+ years when you’ve been done with all you want to do since turning 20, just to build a family of people you wouldn’t stand if they weren’t your blood relatives.
my current living situation is one that i don’t necessarily see myself thriving in too much longer
Wasting so much time and energy on people who didn't care about me. Going out of my way for them. Trying so hard to impress them when they were never going to care.
Getting fired from a dream job, turning in to a bum with no money, mental health problems
mostly school s***, the system around it, i dont wanna learn no more
My girlfriend of 7 years broke up with me in early July and started dating someone new in about a week.
She broke up with me over text and hasn’t contacted me since.
I teeter on suicidal thoughts every other minute.
I’m too scared to ever do anything to myself, but I’m seriously depressed and anxious all of the time.
I havent slept a single night all the way through since then.
I miss my best friend.
Edit: I’m okay though. I feel better than I did a few months ago.
hang in there brother, my gf of 5 years dumped me a week ago and the worst part is it's all my fault