bro went ed

if op wants to say he autistic let him be autistic, that’s one less person you should be arguing with

That’s not what hes saying holy s*** ktt has a reading deficiency

Coming from someone who's also both on the spectrum and has a form of ADHD, I totally understand your struggles. Multiple times I've made stupid mistakes, fail to think before talking or doing, trouble focusing during lectures, moving too fast or slow, etc. Unfortunately not the type who holds a 'superpower" or is incredibly intelligent, which's the stereotype of people like us.

People thought I'm weird, awkward, or slow and it's incredibly frustrating as a result. I'm grateful for having a supporting family and couple of good friends, but my potential to blossom socially is hindered sadly. To top it off, I'm literally the only person in my family like this, although my younger brother has mild Tourettes with possible ADHD.

Exactly and ppl need to know this is a DAILY struggle,not something that u turn off,or stop paying attention to

It just is

U can be more careful but no matter, what it's part of u

Its mentally heavy af

Like am NGL, one of my superpowers is my social being, but i have limits too
Am seen as very charismatic, articulate af etc but i can still feel the handicap and the energy it consumes
And like u said, the fact that ur ideas might be weird
But i think as u grow older,ppl will appreciate ur weird sides,as normal becomes boring to most

It's also this war with ur identity for the longest due to masking and being unable to fit, specially school yrs

Like i def feel u
It's just that folks think we fake it,or that it's normal 🤣🤣🤣
Also I don't take my meds no more
I've appreciated who I am, all the gifts, shortcomings etc and just started living
Happier than ever

Don't need friends either 😂😂😂

To put it like this
My whole life that i did try my best tp fit,i was continuously being bullied for being weird... Now that am my normal ADHD/autistic self, I've become the coolest mfer around, popular and well loved for my positivity, the guy everyone wanna be around

That's how twisted this world is

DO NOT EVER IGNORE RED FLAGS
narc abuse can literally f***ing destroy people man. It's so f***ed up realizing the pwrson u thought u loved never really existed.

Remmebe, they will always f***ikg come back. But not because they love u, but because they need supply and attention. No contacts and good f***ing riddance.

If my narc ex was a guy, I would literally pull up and beat the f*** out of them. Scams of the earth.a narc f***ed mybearly 20s up man. These people are devils. Straight up.

I got cancer back then and she ghosted me to go through it alone. I survived and guess what? B**** sent me 50 page apology letter. Gaslighting on and on. Told her I would rather die of cancer than be with her again.

I can’t trust anyone anymore lol

omg f*** her

Man i feel u, they're evil af
And like u said, back when i went into therapy for my ADHD, which was during the relation i told my doctor too
She was like, how do u feel about them/her?

I was like honestly if this was a school playground,I'd beat LIFE and DAY out of them, I'd prolly even grab a chair and make sure they are as crippled as they made me feel

And i know bro
Like they have no remove at all, i remember talking to her awhile back and she would playfully say how i was a genius monster for some minor s*** that happened while she literally did all those things she did, then she would say; can u pls not talk about that and leave it for what it is?

It's crazy people like this exist jeez 😂
And yeah I've learned one thing life;
Toxic f***ers ALWAYS come back

I mean this week, i spotted one of her flying monkeys lurking my socials and couple days later her new Facebook was in my recommended...

These people live miserable and sad lives, surrounded by "yes-men" whom are also losers desperate for any companion or other toxic ducks
They lie in order to seem interesting and feel fulfilled

But as they get older, they grow lonelier as they are more and more exposed as the evils they are, the bitterness starts eating and wrinkling their mask, their fake snake skin
Their true rotten colors start to shine brighter as they age darker

I ignored red flags cause it was my first relationship, i had sum fears of abandonment and my ADHD caused certain blindspots
I've learned from it, had no choice but to learn after experiencing such horrors

Toxicity has no face

It's crazy tbh specially when one friend told me he knew all along, he knew her since high school and said she was a monster already
I mean the only feel good stories she had, were f***ed up stories where she stole boyfriend's or did weird criminal wanna be s***

These people are worthless and they know it, they just could care less to fix themselves lol

Once u meet their families,it makes more sense tho
Just one big nasty pot of toxic, it was a gruesome experience 😂

And exactly they always know how to make it about them

No matter your situation,they'll pop in and make sure it's about them f***ers

Gratz with overcoming cancer tho 🙏🏽

They are shells bro. The saddest part is these people are not even self aware so they will never snap out of it. They will do the same push and pull toxic s*** to every partner they have.

It's a deep insecurity they are trying yo run away from within themselves. Wvwey insult you got was just projection. They are usually attracted to people with a rich personality and life to fill that void insodd them.

They are the loneliness people in earth. Just jnkw that you are actually capable of unconditional love. Something they cant even feel. Imagine living like thst lol. Once the heart break wears off you pity them. Watch, the second u get over them and level up, they will magically start messaging you trying yo say sorry. Mine did. And I told her to f*** herself.

For real I still get angry a little when u think back.

yessss word bro!
funny thing, is for me the pity started already during my diagnosis and lots of a flaws that ppl abused started becoming clear

and like u said, its all about realizing your self worth

these ppl were losers tbh had no true hobbies, aspirations(pipe dreams), were addicted and like u mentioned, they hung onto people with status; popularity, fame,beauty, talent etc...

i even remember most of them admitting it but in their own way;
"id love to have the type of charisma, that would make a whole room want to be with me, but i somehow CANT do that"

so like u said, theyll use people to fill this void in them, so it feels like theyre somewhat you

like even before i broke up with my ex, my feelings already started fading, soon as u realize that they were the same monster, like the others, only difference was, this was your partner, so u were more closely emotionally connected to them

like i caused "narc trauma/wounds" to her

she even yelled on the streets "Am not the one who gets dumped, im the one who dumps people, f*** off"
which instantly told me; that this s*** wasnt going to work at all, in anyway possible, even a friendship, is unimaginable

and ive seen her mom, shes the same and shes older and looking at her life, she never learned either
they just find new people, to believe in their fantasy world and justify their evil, till the smoke clears and they end up alone again

tbh atm am living my f***ing best life, i took every compliment and insult from all these toxic f***s and like u said, learned they were projections
i mean how someone gonna trash my clothing/style for example, when everytime i walked outside with those same ppl, random folks would compliment my style or even ask to take pictures
the same toxic folks would then just copy your sauce they first deemed weak, thats how non sensical and insecure they are

and ever since, i dont like to toot my own horn when it comes to status, but am a very well known and liked figure in my community, becoming everything they knew i could be but didnt want to see me flourish into

its honestly one of the biggest and best life lessons ive learned
about the evils in the world and about myself

even if theyd show up, am ready
like u said, they are losers basically, pathetic and insecure
am the boss right now, shining hard af
they prolly too scared to come around

and tbh, its quite sad, to c a human with potential(that doesnt realize it) f*** everything up and end up so lonely, but yeah they cant be fixed and arent bothered to be fixed either

like usually when they were drunk/high or some s***, theyd actually talk about their problems, but could never take any true action to get em fixed or solved
they usually expected others to do it for them, hated those "high" pity parties, f***s your own high up

like if u been through it, like we did, u know that in their bedroom, they are just crying of emptiness, loneliness, theyre victims of themselves and somewhat know it, they have no I.D and are dying to obtain some light, which they always kill with they own poisonous water

sick to think, they actually have a couple of friends, those i knew about from her, were true f***ing ugly and disgusting ass losers tho(couldnt even cut them off, when i asked her to choose between me and them lmao), whoever feeds their distorted and ugly ego i guess

dont be bro
u cant be mad, for being a genuinly great person that offered comfort, warmth, understanding, love, empathy and a beautiful heart and soul

they just couldnt handle it, as they were not used to it and never knew what it felt or feels like, to actually actually care for someone

ya did nothing wrong, youll be with whom your pureness deserves to be, someone that reciprocates your light

there is a reason u didnt become one of their ugly flying monkeys, cause u were worth more than them, they wanted to be with you too cause u had that speciality in you and around you, that not many had/have

a strength they can only imagine of having

u overcame cancer bro
i saved this girl from suicide

it shows how strong we are
where they would give up on even the easiest things without flinching, we put our own health on the line and overcame

i can tell u when i saved her, the abuse of her mom was even worse, cause she couldnt take it, that i had really done that, didnt even believe it

so trust me, dont be angry
be proud of yourself

well i honestly dont believe everyone is this evil obviously and everyone has a history

its just that, am more careful who i surround myself with, romantically or as friends

and like Drake said;
"i dont beg no lovers, i dont beg no friends"

so no, i wont be in the trenches fighting for p****, if u want me, show me
if u want to be in it for the long haul, show me why

over are the days, where we sacrifice ourselves, selling ourselves to someone out there doing the bare minimum, but receive

"u get what u give"

Also just remembered
She would actually recall her evilness but would congratulate herself for it

She would tell me stories of how she would purposely steal boys from girls at parties just to spite these girls
And she would just say; **i love myself, I'm so evil 😈😈😈"

Like on sum real s***, even texts from her friends, she would be described as unbearable and always causing drama, kissing up to 10 boys an eve
And she was a teen back then

She recalls it all but will always justify her behavior lmao