Like I used to be a gigastoner when I was 17-21, high morning to night for a majority of those years. However now I realize that it really saps my dopamine/motivation and keeps me so content that I no longer pursue my goals/habits like exercising, cooking better meals, reading, meditating, gardening, etc.

But I struggle so deeply with quitting because it's so easy to get and consume (legal where i live) and because, well, on the whole it isn't really that bad. Like I ain't performing badly at work, I ain't abusive towards my wife or anything, I still get all the things done that I need to do. It just keeps me so complacent.

And it ain't like im out here tryna hustle my way to stardom or anything, just tryna get real fit and be that well-spoken learned man that I want to be. But man its so nice to just get f***ing smacked and play rocket league lmfaoooo

My plan right now that I'm rocking with is that I have a disposable vape stashed in the locker room of a bathhouse that I go to 1-2 times a week so I can only use it before I hit the sauna and cold plunge. So far so good. It's outta the house and means i can only get high 1-2 times a week. But part of me is like "damn bro you really got so little discipline that you gotta stash some s*** out the house to not be high all day everyday?"

Anyway just some ramblings cuz this been weighing on me for awhile now. Happy Thursday fellas

well, you moving the vape out of the house and setting things to do before you get high are already good steps lmao. most niggas won't even admit they have a problem, just keep at it and find s*** that you enjoy + keep you busy

been working on regulating my usage myself

Cold turkey

Throw that s*** in a river or sumn

Same, I smoke one everyday and it's a bit like that, although I do some things here and there but I wish I could do more. I believe my issue is mainly with laziness, because I still do stuff, but its the stuff that needs to be done with a computer, so that's what I do all day.
I also think about my discipline and how it looks right now
We only need some balance, but it's not easy
I'm on a constant war with myself rn

Yeah, makes it worse that niggas will light up 24/7 and then call you dumb when you say it might have side effects

done that so many times
used to be easier before it was legal i'd just delete dealers numbers and be good for months

now i can just drive like 5min and get anything i want

But I’m in a similar boat as you so ur not alone

ye im hoping this is the start to some moderate use

cuz i dont wanna quit completely, i really like getting high i just dont wanna be high every goddamn day but if its in the house its gonna get smoked lmfaoooo

Sounds like you just need to build discipline

You work out?

wait I thought u didn't smoke

I used to when it was super accessible to me (friends down the hall and street that would sell) and I was around 20+ people that were smoking constantly but as soon as that accessibility went away due to disability and housing insecurity that urge to smoke/be high regularly went away relatively easy (to be fair in sharing my experience vs yours, a lot of that going away was more of these troubles taking up my mentality capacity but at the core this starts with accessibility because I know that if my situation was the same besides being able to have weed regularly I'd still be a chimney)

But I do think you shouldn't look at how you're going about limiting your access as weakness/a sign that you're not making progress and instead as something really creative

Like you said, you have super easy access so instead of just telling yourself you'll stop or coming up with something super complicated on some 12 step type thing why not pull from your life and what you do and build a way to smoke less around that.

I also think the bath plan is really good because beyond sheer accessibility there's the built in limitation of only being able to use a small vape and not getting king Kong high because you can't be hotboxing a public indoor spot like that and have to drive/bike home I'm assuming

i use a drop of THC tinctures like once a week

6 days a week lol

talking about my psychs dude lmao, im pretty damn dependent on them i gotta say

personally ive never had a problem w not smoking weed

I can quit on a dime for however long I want to

I usually end up smoking weed again at some point bc I don't rlly have any rzn not to, but like lets say ive got a d*** test coming up, I'll just stop on a dime for a month or whatever, no problem

ah fair, yeah...

yeah like if i have to i can easily stop but if i don't have to and i have easy access to it I find myself wake and baking on default every day

thanks for the comment man. yeah im hoping that keeping the vape out the house means that I only get high 1-2 times a week.

because im tried just going cold turkey recently but i just find a way to justify picking up some more. but with the vape at the baths i know that i'll be able to get high later on in the week and not feel that urge to get high in the moment. and yeah plus i cant get gigasmacked cuz i gotta drive home after lol

yk w that I think its more of a lack of a reason to not smoke. cus like if there's no real reason to quit then why would u quit.

I guess what helps me keep it in moderation is I know it can mess w my sleep if I smoke too frequently ig. so thats my reason for keeping it chill

if u rlly wanna stop smoking altogether, ask urself why. cus if u rlly feel that way there's probably already a good reason for u, u just gotta make it very clear to urself.

yeah i guess its really just all what i find a priority. cuz i know that when im high everyday it f***s with my other goals, so clearly they aint really that important i guess. need to think about this more...

Yes the dichotomy is usually knowing I’d be better off sober but choosing to smoke/drink because it’s an easy fix for my anxiety. Only edibles even get me blasted now. Smoking is more of a habitual thing since the act of preparing and sitting there smoking until it’s finished is relaxing in and of itself.

Love d****

man i relate to the whole ritual and preparation aspect

yea if u have a solid reason to not smoke then yea that should help a lot