replace it with another ritual that also brings you joy

No problem

And I really do think this is a good way to be moving because it's all about reshaping within yourself and what you struggle with

From that working out comment and the way you talk about a lot of things on here, I'd assume you have relatively strong discipline but as much as we'd like to think that discipline can be rote applied to each and every one of our challenges, it doesn't work that way

You've recognized that with this challenge and reshaped your relationship with weed physically in a way that will allow your mental reshaping with it to follow

We’re more so hooked on the dopamine hit we get achieving such a short term goal. Cooking for others helped me understand this. Or brains want beginnings and ends to things or else we’re not satisfied.

I’d argue it’s not even about the weed once you get this deep.

I found that killing the voice that goes “its not that bad” has helped me do things i either have a hard time doing or put off

It felt like I was sweet talking myself, and even if it were a bad thing id rationalize it enough to convince my self.

Sometimes you just dont want to and dont need a reason

facts thats a rlly big aspect

idk there's plenty of cool stuff to do w ur hands tho

pick up sewing maybe? origami?

dam literally wrote in my journal yesterday that "now is the time to immerse myself in my hobbies and passions" when writing about my weed use. you spying on me or what?

man frfr it goes deep

i feel like since i smoked so much when i was younger and my brain was developing that those neurological circuits associated with weed use are so strong that the rest of my brain is having a hard time moving past it

man you spitting

ye i gotta just throw myself into the other things i wanna do so I dont get bored

got some clothes to mend, books to read, poems to write, etc. gotta just lean into that stuff more. be more of a creator and less of a consumer or sumn

@op are you a full time worker? How flexible is your job? I'd suggest doing a 10 day vipassana retreat as a reset since you'll be forced to meditate all day and have no access to substances or be around any triggers. (obviously this is limited if you can't block that time off)

the other option is my buddy recently just quit smoking weed but he was able to do it through his religion (Christianity) I think he made a pact with god.

I'd say go somewhere where you can't smoke for at-least a weekend, somewhere quiet with lots of time to reflect. If you constantly being triggered by stress it's hard to kick habits like these.

ur journal is part of my daily reading 🤝

Ive been high everyday for like 5 years and its defo taken a toll on my concentration and focus on doing what i want to do. So difficult to stop though lol but i have been reducing it

Wake and bake is the one thing to stay away from imo just make sure if u do smoke its after uve accomplished what u wanted to and at the end of the day

also I read the op, getting high a couple times a week is fine fam don't be so hard on yourself. The guilt is probably half the reason you keep smoking

full time but moderately flexible

i been thinking about one of those retreats for awhile now but they're still not really happening near me yet, lingering covid s*** i guess

plus idk if I have enough pto for it

but yeah i fell off my meditation habit a couple weeks ago and I'm tryna bring that back along with reading

I've recently started a whole new stack of medication from a pharmacist I see for some of my personal goals and among them is an adrenal thing to control stress. I don't really have a lot of stress to deal with tbh but now is like the time to start making some important changes in my practices and routines. I appreciate the comment fr man

yeah thats why im keeping the vape out the house

if i have it on the property I wake up 6am and first thing I do even before making coffee is smoke. so that's a big step in the right direction

yeah besides if you only got so many vacation days you don't wanna waste that s*** on a silent retreat fr. I'd recommend just giving yourself a weekly meditation goal to hit (5 hours or something). It can really help with these kinds of things. Just be careful not to overdo it sometimes meditation makes s*** worse

i wouldn't call it a waste but yeah im tryna keep a decent amount banked up cuz back in 2020 I had a plan to visit Japan with my wife and that s*** still aint happened due to covid, so I wanna keep like 14 pto days stacked so that when Japan opens up for tourists we can zip on over there. thx for the comment about the guilt btw, i do feel guilty that i cant just stop completely, or rather dont want to stop completely. I just want a healthy relationship with the d*** u kno

only first couple days is hard then its aight

Maybe try to keep it for weekends only?

i struggle pretty bad tbh its by far my biggest vice

Get on that delta 8 wave

2 years 1 month no weed ama

You gotta accept the fact that you’ll probably never stop smoking weed.

I mean half of the country is still like illegal. Just move lol.