Coming back to this and seeing if I did feel this versus stress induced depression.

I think I had some similar effects of this after taking philosophy with going straight into a stressful job.

There were weeks where every day I come home from work crying during my commute.

i know its not a good thing but ive always wanted to experience this

this might not be related but does anyone else ever glitch in real life. like ill just be standing in the morning about to wash my face and i get this wave/tingle over my body and i gotta jerk my head lol. s*** lasts a second or 2 but i find it so weird and dk the cause

Have this sometimes, especially when on K. S*** makes me want to kill myself lowkey

Sounds like you got high on that edible you ate good thing you found a big word to explain how scared you were

no you f***ing dont bro. Trust me. . It feels like hell

nah there's people who smoke once and are stuck with it. there's a whole subreddit r/DPDR where a s*** ton of people live with this s***. lot of em got it from weed or psychedelics

This makes it impossible for me to drive a car ☹️

I got it from weed

Haven’t smoked weed in 9 years

man its been bout 3 years and i tried smoking again recently and i had a s***ty episode again and now i've been with it for a few weeks again im done with weed forever. More people should know about this s*** cause i was smoking for years till i got this s*** randomly

I was looking for a reply that included acceptance rather than suppression and I couldn't find many. So here is my story.

Im 30 now. I had it 9 years ago for the first time and it lasted years in some kind of way. Went to see therapists and even took some medication. But ultimately it was meditation or the philosophy of meditation that changed my life regarding this. If you feel something it has a saying in you and in your body and that should be respected and accepted. If you push it away and suppress it it usually becomes stronger or comes back in a different way.

From the tools that I learned I went back to find the edge again. And this would be purposely smoking weed to find the state again. From there you can take a look around and soften. If you do this a few times you get over it and you understand it.

I still smoke for that reason. To find me. To find my feelings. If they are painful then that has to be accepted as well. They come and go anyways the only thing that gets you stuck if you fight anxieties like i have been reading in this thread. You cant fight it imo.

Now obviously this is the theory based on my experiences. Everyone is different but I wanted to give this thread a positive twist because i think if anything this experience should be nurtured and seen as part of truth if anything.

ayo y’all ever check the date n time and it’ll be monday @ 5pm then a couple hours go by and it’s friday morning

thats how i got over it. Kind've just kept living my life and acceptedf it then eventually it went away. This is only relevant if you got it from weed though i think. There are some people really born with this disorder so i don't think that really helps. But I don't smoke anymore cause now everytime i try I just think about dpdr then all of a sudden im experiencing it again

Stop romanticizing issued anf disorders

Had it these last months due to my high anxiety/depression/adhd

Its not fun
U can literally NOT do anything, atleast i couldnt
Ur vision all the sudden turns very stretched/big and blurry
Everything is vivid
WHICH SEEMS COOL BUT
ur under alot of hightened stress and anxiety, so no u cant handle all the brightness,colors,noises,eyes, footsteps,cars etc...

Its a f***ing hell

THAT'S WHY LIVE AND YOUR MIND ITSELF BECOME SO UNBEARABLE FOR UR OWN MIND, UR MIND LITERALLY SHUTS ITSELF DOWN IN ORDER TO PROTECT U

so u dont even KNOW what's happening really
D*** psychosis yes

But what i felt back then?
Nope

U just notice theres something VERY VERY off about the way u think and experience the world
In my therapy rapport, i had said;
Nothing feels real and everything is against you
U feel like a literal ghost

I even remember a few times being lightheaded/fainting feeling in public or when talking to people,cause i wasnt quite there
I cant even remember 90% of these last few months
Specially not actions, cause then i was required to do stuff against my will and then i prolly disconnected

i get the lightheaded/faint feeling sometimes

i get this sometimes looking in the mirror

its like damn im me and this is real life

Like going outside is something i remember
The hallway of the apartment
Going down rhe staircase, i could already hear the cars engines rumble like monsters, footsteps like tribal drums coming to haunt me
People who talked were all whispering about me, 1 cm from my ears
The outside light through the window on top of the door was like the portal to that world i wasnt part of or just couldn't connect with

Going outside was literally the hardest task, i would pace up and down the staircase or appartement 100 times before finally going outside

And once outside,i was empty and dead, i cannot remember anything
Just sensory overload, hallucinations, feeling dizzy, agitated and being nervous af

Even in the city, i literally hid in the corners of the city, for solitude..

Like fr i dont wanna hear the youth talk about they self diagnosed issues and anxieties cause u a lil shy in public
Everyone is.
This what anxiety really like.

Those who claimed to have it due to shyness never even noticed mine cause i was masking like a pro

Like i could look literally no one in the eyes, not even my parents
A convo? Lol, id rather be stuck in ma head where its safe, getting judged but atleast itd my own voices in ma head judging me :(

Ya'll need to start meditating if you ain't already

Yeah its not like the type u get from standing up to fast
Its like my vision gets abstract too and it feels like a sudden weird detune from reality,its like inside u "knack" a weird flashback/dreamstate like feeling u have no control over

Night i broke down, someone spoke to me earlier, and i was carrying myselg with the last very very last bits of mental energy and it was football practice

And dude wanted to tell me something, but i was absent af in mz head anf insecure af

So i was caught off guard in the first place,since i was in ma head the entire time
Typical ADHD;
didnt hear half he said due to dreaming

ANXIETY/DEPRESSION kick in;
Instantly assumes the worst,looks at facial expression (which people witj disorders have very hard times reading....) and again assumes said person is belittling me

Next to u know, my vision literally warps, my head gets this knack, lightheaded feeling,feel like my mind rejected reality and i didn't respond

He just turned around and left..

I mean, i even shouted at people in public, random strangers...
Anxiety, impulsivity, emotional dysregulation and voila...

And the worst thing?
U notice and don't notice

That's why im always highly sus when people talk to first hard or closely about their issues as if they were in 3rf person watching themselves

Like to me its just a completely different mind/energy taking over and i feel/sense this in my mind and energy
But not in public
Hence why i dont eveb remember 90% of what happened

Try grounding exercises friends. Good luck 😊

Didnt even know i had clinical depression, social anxiety,anger etc until the diagnosis bro

And even then, half what i had reported i don't even remember cause i was in that depressed state

It was felt like primal instincts survival modus for ma conscious
In a sense that it felt like the real me, had Hidden/got buried and was just like a spectator
And the outside me, was like animal instinct me, just protecting and surviving;
Seeking alone time outside anf being highly inflammable as a sort of defense mechanism?

I’ve had this before lol it sucks but it goes away everyone itt needs to get off the d**** and start meditating so they stop overthinking and feeding into it

meditation helps for sure. It gives the same feeling but actually beneficial. Like meditation makes you feel more awake to reality in a good way. Sometimes you get too wrapped up in this world and meditating is always a good wake up call

Not romanticizing but i apologize cuz i didnt know how serious it was for a lot of people. I think i meant/confused it with experiencing an ego death like when one takes a lot of shrooms n s***. Do you still experience this?