coy, very quiet, shy, "good" boy

Was always f***ing s*** up

I feel you OP. I remember less of my life in general everyday. Sometimes I think I don’t exist. Once I make it as an artist (which is the only thing I wanna do in life) I’m gonna kill myself to find out

I was f***ing babysitters

also remember that everyone in my class was white and when I asked them who was... they said ''I dirin si nutin''

Very weird awkward, lowkey ed tbh

doubt

loner, didn't talk much didn't make effort to make friends never sat alone at lunch tho. still this same exact way to this day

Like 4th-9th grade? I was a piece of s*** loser lmfao.

Jealous, impulsive liar, kind of a bully, homophobe, animal abuser, heartless to girls, trying way too hard to be cool, ultimately ended up “That guy”. Cried often, lazy as f*** and never did s*** besides be annoying. looking back, i had no redeeming qualities besides being creative,

i was just the clown that people hung around to laugh at

Feel like i was living an s***t cynical adult life back then, and now im getting older and im reverting to a vulnerable soft boy child as a get older. adult me is indescribably more awesome than child/teenage me.

Also just a loner

I remember my mom would take me to playgrounds and go, go make friends play a bit! And Id be anxious as hell and stayed to myself just swinging or sliding alone

Quiet and weird

Idk, I’m told I was a lot happier tho

Oh yeah I was fat as s*** too

how do you think your life experiences have influenced this shift?

F*** that little idiot

i hated when my parents tried putting me in summer camp

i have never liked small talk

you get older and become domesticated and all that

but i wholeheartedly believe nobody actually likes small talk and we need to just stop pretending

Small talk honestly only makes sense in corporate context imo otherwise that s***s so worthless

I always felt like I’ve had to “adapt” to small talk, pretty unnatural tbh

watching the movie "the invention of lying" is really refreshing

dunno if you've ever seen it but i dream of a world where everybody can just be real with each other

and not do and say s*** just because it's customary

Great question.

At the end of 9th grade few things happened at school that basically started this path to who i am today, i realized i was unlikeable and most people there were just putting up with me, talking behind my back n s***. I was such a d*** to girls who had crushs on me. So everything that happened was deserved tbh.

i went to alternative/home school, and basically exiled myself for the rest of high school. spent time reading, writing and making music, also started doing acid around that time and that forsure made me shift.

Basically found myself from living in literal isolation from age 14-20.

Friendly (maybe too much to people who didn’t deserve it), open minded and adventurous, eager to learn, kinda shy

Went to s*** as a teen and young adult

I feel more like kid me now, just more relaxed

I was that typical friend that didn't have s*** and always asks things like: Hey bro you mind me if I come to your house and play

your parents putted you on that s***?