do you remember how you were as a child?

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  • Nov 12, 2020
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    notesfromphilo

    "he was full of youth... not yet abused by time..."

    what made you lose your innocence?

    adds to list of ice breaker questions

    Depression

    Then substance abuse

  • Nov 12, 2020
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    Tadow

    Excellent question, I'll let you know when I get that all figured out

    may your journey there be meaningful

    peace to you

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    notesfromphilo

    i haven't tried acid but i am open to it

    any pro tips?

    it'll probably be a while as i want to try shrooms first and kind of work my way there

    i just started smoking weed in january and i have grown more than i ever have over the course of this year so i am excited to dig a bit deeper into my consciousness

    last night i had this thought

    "i don't want to be self conscious, i want to be consciousness"

    it sounds simple but it just clicked into place why losing your "self" can be such an enlightening experience

    also saw this MJ interview where he talked about the importance of artists getting out of their own way

    it's something i knew instinctively years ago, but my psychedelic experiences have helped me relearn these truths...

    Be careful with weed man. it can be a tool but its very easy to abuse too.

    Psychedelics on the other hand, u gotta be a damn lunatic to abuse those frfr.

    weed is technically psychedelic i guess, but not like acid. Never tried shrooms. But i heard shrooms doesnt last as long. acid last a whole 12 hours and will likely f*** ya whole perception up for the better, If you let it.

    With acid, set and setting is the key. Make sure ya schedule cleared and you are in a good environment, and make sure your headspace is normal, you dont have to be super happy before u do it but dont drop a tab if you feeling down unless you wanna go dat way with the trip and get over some s***.

    If its bitter its a spitter. acid is tasteless. Get a test kit if u buying from a sketchy source. But tbh its pretty easy to get real now due to easy access to the darknet. Ive never had some bunk RC’s ever and ive tripped 20+ times.

    We can carry this discussion on in the
    psychedelics thread in sub sxn if u want.

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    The Viper

    Realized? Maybe 19. About three years ago. Noticed or was suspicious? Probably sometime in elementary school but I guess my mind wasn’t concrete enough to realize it yet. I’ve been straight acting for probably most of my life so far unless it’s around friends, and even then aspects of that fly out.

    I know that s*** sounded depressing but I’m also aware that when I’m in my 30s with life going good I’ll probably laugh about these years at the end of the day tbh. I’m surrounding myself with the right people

    i'm not gay but my father didn't really accept me as an artist and so i've always felt like i was acting to impress him

    i felt caged

    and up to this year it had been the defining story of my life

    creating art has helped me tremendously in finding, loving, and accepting myself

    have you found any outlets?

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    Jon

    Depression

    Then substance abuse

    you doing okay today?

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    felli_varda

    Be careful with weed man. it can be a tool but its very easy to abuse too.

    Psychedelics on the other hand, u gotta be a damn lunatic to abuse those frfr.

    weed is technically psychedelic i guess, but not like acid. Never tried shrooms. But i heard shrooms doesnt last as long. acid last a whole 12 hours and will likely f*** ya whole perception up for the better, If you let it.

    With acid, set and setting is the key. Make sure ya schedule cleared and you are in a good environment, and make sure your headspace is normal, you dont have to be super happy before u do it but dont drop a tab if you feeling down unless you wanna go dat way with the trip and get over some s***.

    If its bitter its a spitter. acid is tasteless. Get a test kit if u buying from a sketchy source. But tbh its pretty easy to get real now due to easy access to the darknet. Ive never had some bunk RC’s ever and ive tripped 20+ times.

    We can carry this discussion on in the
    psychedelics thread in sub sxn if u want.

    appreciate your insight

  • Nov 12, 2020
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    notesfromphilo

    you doing okay today?

    Hahaha yes I actually had a very good day today! Thanks for asking bro

  • Nov 12, 2020
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    notesfromphilo

    appreciate your insight

    Just @ u with some more tips in the subs thread

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    notesfromphilo

    i'm not gay but my father didn't really accept me as an artist and so i've always felt like i was acting to impress him

    i felt caged

    and up to this year it had been the defining story of my life

    creating art has helped me tremendously in finding, loving, and accepting myself

    have you found any outlets?

    Oh yeah of course tons of outlets and ironically art is one of them lol. Weights, conditioning, flexibility/yoga training,

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    I was a perverted class clown and very obnoxious and always talking but that ended around 8th grade and I became a sarcastic, shy prick

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    The Viper

    Oh yeah of course tons of outlets and ironically art is one of them lol. Weights, conditioning, flexibility/yoga training,

    awesome

    i wish you well on your journey

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    Chip Skylark

    I was a perverted class clown and very obnoxious and always talking but that ended around 8th grade and I became a sarcastic, shy prick

    how did that transition make you feel?

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    I was that nigga I ain’t finna lie to you

  • Nov 12, 2020
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    notesfromphilo

    how did that transition make you feel?

    First time I dealt with depression & idk it just changed my whole personality from one grade to another and I just didn’t think of it being a big deal being a prick to my friends I thought I was “cool”

    Like kids I knew from elementary surprised I was way back and timid in high school and thought it was weird but my close friends were thinking I changed in a bad way but nowadays they say I’m way better now lol

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    notesfromphilo

    why do you think you didn't have control over your emotions?

    Lack of experience, over time I learned to deal with a******s and people like that and know not to take everything personal.

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    yeah. What causes ppl to forget how they were as children? Trauma?

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    notesfromphilo

    would you agree that you are feminine or do you think that's just how people perceive(d) you?

    does it bother you?

    hmm interesting question. i think that's how people perceived me back then which maybe made me embrace it more as an adult. and nah it doesn't bother me. i have my ear pierced, nails painted, wear some questionable stuff. i lean into it and lowkey like the attention and confidence it brings me

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    Reckless

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    Have always felt I’ve always been “the same”

    Do y’all feel like you’ve CHANGED as a person?

    I just feel as far back as I can remember, I’ve always thought or felt the same as I always have

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    i was described by teachers as a social butterfly . i was always singing and laughing . omg .

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    My mom used to call me the devil

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    felli_varda

    Be careful with weed man. it can be a tool but its very easy to abuse too.

    Psychedelics on the other hand, u gotta be a damn lunatic to abuse those frfr.

    weed is technically psychedelic i guess, but not like acid. Never tried shrooms. But i heard shrooms doesnt last as long. acid last a whole 12 hours and will likely f*** ya whole perception up for the better, If you let it.

    With acid, set and setting is the key. Make sure ya schedule cleared and you are in a good environment, and make sure your headspace is normal, you dont have to be super happy before u do it but dont drop a tab if you feeling down unless you wanna go dat way with the trip and get over some s***.

    If its bitter its a spitter. acid is tasteless. Get a test kit if u buying from a sketchy source. But tbh its pretty easy to get real now due to easy access to the darknet. Ive never had some bunk RC’s ever and ive tripped 20+ times.

    We can carry this discussion on in the
    psychedelics thread in sub sxn if u want.

    what subsection

  • Nov 12, 2020
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    Unironically I was a mad ass nigga. I stayed getting suspended in school for talking back to the teachers and whatnot.

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    A Mad Ass Nigga

    Unironically I was a mad ass nigga. I stayed getting suspended in school for talking back to the teachers and whatnot.

    what were you mad about?

  • Nov 12, 2020
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    Crayshe

    what subsection

    ktt2.com/subs

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