i never lasted more than a day or two in summer camp

i never knew why when i was younger

but i just really liked having time to myself

and i hated meeting new people

i still do for the most part

but at the same time i've been working in sales since 2014 so i've learned the value in being smooth and off the cuff etc.

aside from getting to know women that i fancy

i don't tend to enjoy small talking for no reason

yeah and i feel the exact same still

Well-mannered young man!

i whined a lot because my brother, dad and grandpa would bully me. i pretty much spent all my time available with my grandma, mom, aunt etc. so i became very "feminine"

Pretty happy but I also lacked any control of my emotions so if kids made fun of me I’d take it personal a lot of the time. Also I’d get in a lot of fights with my older brother. But in general I was a happy go lucky lil kid

A lot happier because I thought my family accepted me. But then I accepted the cold hard reality as I grew

trash

would you agree that you are feminine or do you think that's just how people perceive(d) you?

does it bother you?

what made you realize your family doesn't accept you?

i feel this

family dynamics is something i think we all should talk about more

why do you think you didn't have control over your emotions?

feel free to share your art if you'd like

peace to you

Innocent :(

Yes, it all felt like it happened yesterday

Quiet, god-fearing, "gifted & talented," would snap when provoked, loved going outside & loved video games.

All of this is no longer true

I came out the closet and they all cut me off. Just called me misguided and say it’s because of the lack of a true presence of a father. S*** like that f***s with your head even if you’re in your 20s. especially rn heading into the holidays

Probably annoying like all children

i haven't tried acid but i am open to it

any pro tips?

it'll probably be a while as i want to try shrooms first and kind of work my way there

i just started smoking weed in january and i have grown more than i ever have over the course of this year so i am excited to dig a bit deeper into my consciousness

last night i had this thought

"i don't want to be self conscious, i want to be consciousness"

it sounds simple but it just clicked into place why losing your "self" can be such an enlightening experience

also saw this MJ interview where he talked about the importance of artists getting out of their own way

it's something i knew instinctively years ago, but my psychedelic experiences have helped me relearn these truths...

i barely remember parts of high school

"he was full of youth... not yet abused by time..."

what made you lose your innocence?

adds to list of ice breaker questions

who are you today?

if you don't mind me asking, when did you realize that you were gay?

i've always had the perspective that people are born with their sexual preferences, and i have a hard time understanding why people think it's a choice...

i'm sorry that they have treated you this way, and i hope that you can find peace... even if you have to keep your distance.

Excellent question, I'll let you know when I get that all figured out

Realized? Maybe 19. About three years ago. Noticed or was suspicious? Probably sometime in elementary school but I guess my mind wasn’t concrete enough to realize it yet. I’ve been straight acting for probably most of my life so far unless it’s around friends, and even then aspects of that fly out.

I know that s*** sounded depressing but I’m also aware that when I’m in my 30s with life going good I’ll probably laugh about these years at the end of the day tbh. I’m surrounding myself with the right people