if I saw op in front of me I’d slap the s*** out of his face no cap

kids out there going to wars at 14-20s and this b**** is crying over not drinking alcohol and dancing

yeah i'm tryin not to make the same mistakes but i really can't forgive myself for the time i wasted. only reasons i made those mistakes in the first place is cuz im a idiot

Well get over it. Sitting there and crying about s*** u can’t change is pointless.

No one is going to baby u in life, I don’t care if u “can’t forgive yourself” or not. It’s not that big a deal. Go do s*** ur 20s are the best anyway.

I wasted my chances to get wasted going to college after high school with hot chicks partying..

But no regrets

OP you're gonna feel like this about every decade of your life until you realize that this is what it is

While I did go to some parties, fw chicks, hang out with friends, etc. etc. I also wasted a lot of time being on some sad/overthinking s*** and while I'm still working everyday to improve my mental patterns the biggest realization you gotta come to is that the sad s*** don't matter and you f***ing up the memories you could be making at 23-30 worrying about what you didn't do from 13-20

Once you really get that concept you feel dumb af but also realize that there is no time to waste and you just gotta start taking chances and doing s*** lol

Get a goal and work relentlessly at it

it is a big deal. i wasted my entire life. i deserve to die for that honestly

none of this matters anyway i'm gonna kill myself

Seriously, go get help. No one in their right mind thinks 23 years is “their entire life”. You just legally could drink man lol.

i wouldn't advise that my boy you 23 with a degree and good job

whatever problems u got can be fixed i promise you if you really start being honest with yourself about why you were lonely, depressed, etc. why did you view yourself as a "lame". why didn't you go to parties. why didnt you have friends. why didn't you get b****es. if you don't address and understand childhood traumas you gonna be feeling like this forever.

but if your mind cant be switched....

post in here before you do so i can send u my cash app bc i aint got no b**** ass accounting job

you're confusing me with another poster?? i dont have a degree or accounting job lmao

the only reason for that s*** is bc i was fat and ugly. the f***ed up part is i didn't even realize how f***ing horrible i was until maybe a year ago. i let myself walk around looking like a f***ing ogre for 23 years that s*** is unforgivable. thinking about it now makes me want to put a bullet in my head

its literally my entire life up to this point

lol driveslow is a meme idk how u guys keep falling for him

just bc no one else here wasted their whole life being a fat disgusting monster like me doesn't mean i'm a meme

If you feel like that then what are you gonna do next? waste the rest of your life?

Get up and do something productive

join the club

i hate this binary cuz i do work towards s*** and i try to be more productive but i still feel like this so thanks for not being helpful at all

meme

thought u were the other dude who said his life was over @ 23. my fault.

aye man just go work out.

but like i said though until you accept and understand whatever that childhood trauma is...you could wake up tomorrow looking like insert attractive famous person and you still would do goofy s*** based on you reacting and moving with b****es off of your childhood trauma.

also some of the fattest and ugliest niggas I know got b****es bc they were just bold enough to go for it and also had a personality to keep em.

set the goal of getting in shape and accept that you can't change anything about what happened within the past 20+ years. you can only control the future. you killing yourself, while it will end the mental anguish here (as far as you know lol) it won't undo the 23 years of you being fat ugly and b****less. it just ends the potential for the next 23 years of your life of you NOT being fat ugly and b****less.

Work out
change something with your grooming (new hairstyle, beard, etc.)
lower your standards and be realistic about who is gonna find u attractive
and realize everyone got insecurities and everyone s*** stinks

also realize that parties, b****es, etc. if you missed it in HS you're probably only gonna f*** your life up more tryna recapture that feeling as a grown man. You will never be a responsibility-less kid again who could just party forever and s***and d**** were new and all the s*** we love about being 17.
Work out and get some real goals. Let that childhood s*** go.

I've been working out semi-consistently for like 6 months and it really doesn't help anything lmao

i still look like s***, i still hate myself, and i'm still a fat disgusting monster. like yay i can run longer without losing my breath who f***ing cares about that though?

the only way i can fix my childhood trauma as you put it is to not be f***ing fat anymore. but for some reason that's so difficult for me so i'm stuck being a fat piece of s***

Lol I feel the same way sometimes (for different reasons ) but when I talk to older ppl about it they say 30 is the new 20 op. you still got time

Fam you literally just broke down how you can tangibly fix your problems and said it's too hard.

Look at what you're typing. You been working out "semi consistently" (so I know this means less than once a week, and really probably more sporadic and spread out than even that) for half a year lol. What do you expect to happen? Either go as hard as you are sad

or if you can't get past the laziness put that energy in something else and get rich enough for surgery. but you should probably just go hard with working out.

I see posts like this all time. Your s*** can be fixed with consistent effort and time passing. It's mfs with micropenis' and cancer and brain tumors and s*** like that and you ready to kill yourself bc you don't wanna hit the gym. Who gonna come do that s*** for you dog?

it means 4-5 days/week but sometimes i'll miss a whole week or two that's not really important tho

i know how to lose weight and what i should be doing but i always f*** it up or wind up gaining back whatever tiny amount of weight i can manage to actually lose. clearly there's something about me that just makes me worse than everyone else bc its easy for everyone else to not be a fat f***ing monster. this is why i should just put a bullet in my head and call it quits bc i'm clearly not fit to exist

s*** would be easy if i could just stop eating but i'm too much of a p**** to even do that

miss a whole week or two at the gym and wonder why nothing is working