BillyShears

3y

Bro as someone who’s around your age was ready to leave this earth like 18 months ago

Please don’t. honestly it life only gets better, but it takes time. I’d be sick if I killed myself, I wouldn’t be able to enjoy anything of the good things that’s happening now.

And also bro the bad days are what makes the goods days enjoyable. Because, you felt how s***ty things could be, and when those days get better you’ll appreciate those days much more.

I’m no superhero, psychologist or anything like that but I’ll tell you what I did to get through those days where I just wanted to end it all. And, hopefully me sharing this can help you.

I just made a goal to wake up the next day. I know that’s the barest of minimums, but at the time I felt like I couldn’t do anything right. I f***ed up a really good job opportunity, ruined a potential relationship, ruined a friendship, and was dealing with my sexuality. I felt like everything I did my all life was all for nothing, the struggles, the success, everything was for nothing, because when it came time to execute on everything I learned I failed.

So the one thing I could do right was wake up.

So once I was up I’d try to do other things, go for a walk, call a friend, get good at something, anything that wasnt killing myself. Also I was lucky to have a therapist that could challenge the way I was thinking and change my perspective. But talking to other people really helped me through it too.

I’m not sure why you feel the way you do op, but you can get through this, you’re worth a f***, its not gonna be easy, but s*** the best things in life aren’t. Please op take the baby steps you need to take to not feel this way.

Also everyone itt is saying find something you love, and BELIEVE ME I know how difficult that can be when you feel the way you do. People told me the same thing and I wanted to backhand everyone of them 😅, but they were right.

That steps comes much later tho, first you need get out of this line of thinking you have, really challenge yourself to think opposite of what you’re thinking now. Just focus on that challenging your thoughts. Eventually you’ll come to a point where you’ll start believing that maybe life IS worth living, and then from there you can start finding things that give your life value. But you gotta start with those baby steps. Continue to keep waking up, continue to challenge those thoughts. And I’m telling you things will slowly get better. Don’t beat yourself up when the thoughts get the better of you too! Even me I have days where I think “shoot Sunday would be a perfect day to die”, but I challenge that thought, and make a goal to wake up Monday morning.

Doing this since 2019 helped me a lot even through the pandemic, even being lost after graduating, even after ruining another friendship, f***ing up two opportunities to work at two big tech companies with a really good salary and relocation bonuses.

But challenging the way I thought helped me see that life comes with highs and lows. And the good days would suck if I never knew what a bad day felt like. So instead of feeling like a failure again, and that once again everything I worked for was for nothing, I felt like I just made a mistake. And, if I can go from wanting to kill myself to loving life, I can recover from this mistake.

@op You can get through this, you can make the small changes, you’re worth a f***, and you’ll see brighter days. Just as long as you make that your goal and ensure that you keep waking up.

user

3y

You’re gonna die regardless so just look at it like every good moment/feeling you have from this moment till then is icing on the cake

hot pancakes

3y

@op you are young man, life changes so fast, with time i guarantee you you will feel different. i’m 29 and i feel vastly different than i did when i was 22

i had serious anxiety and was extremely depressed, on and off benzos and anti depressants, all that. now i’m off everything and manage my anxiety/depression as it comes. feel 1000000x times better than i did back then

you can kick this, beat it, and preserver. checking out is never the option, you never know what life will throw at you and i promise you you will be glad you stuck it out 50-60 years down the line

it seems like nothing will ever look up, but time truly heals all. force yourself into good productive habits even if you don’t feel like it

start going to the gym or working out at as much as you can, 5 times a week if possible. make it a habit. you will look great, feel great, and also develop an extremely healthy hobby

covid has everyone feeling really dark right now, the world will open soon and things will look up. ride this out op, no matter what happens so many more options and possibilities out there when you stick around

NiceLikeChrist

3y

You are 22 years old with internet access living in the greatest country on earth. You got it better than 90% of the world.

Time to focus up and start grinding

ALPHABEAR

3y

Have you tried dedicating your life to a cause greater than yourself?

DVLPR

3y

A lot of suicidal threads lately.

TragedyBerlusconi

3y

Shut the f*** up

TragedyBerlusconi

3y

You havent been to therapy or been prescribed anti depressants. You havent tried everything

Saturday

3y

Why May if you don't mind me asking, man?

humberg

3y

Moms birthday is a month prior

humberg

3y

U right, hope u get the best in life b. Making fun of suicidal strangers on the Internet is a sign of ur #winning

Sell

3y

Im not making fun of you lmao I’m just pointing facts you need attention talking about your gonna off yourself in a specific date like bruh that s*** is f***ing negative keep that s*** to yourself

humberg

3y

I been to the mental hospital and been prescribed already. I ain’t taking that s*** cause I ain’t crazy.

This world is f***ed and everyone knows it. But people keep making kids n forcing mfs to be here

At least let us have the option to kill ourselves gracefully with euthanasia like wtf

TragedyBerlusconi

3y

SSRIs are not given to 'crazy' people. They raise your circulating serotonin and help you navigate life. They're not crazy d****, extremely well studied and safe. Chill

humberg

3y

F*** that s***