I’m really entering a really bad place these days. I’m working customer service and feel trapped. Hours are increasing due to lack of workers, I lost an off day, I feel cut off from friends and people who care about me or don’t think they really care at all. Family is too old to understand my mental health. Called off because my anxiety is causing me to vomit and I’m feeling more alone/angry than ever.

I don’t know why I wrote this thread because I know there are obvious solutions, but I don’t know where to start. The last straw is I’m using a boxcutter from work to carve into myself and I kinda like it. Gives a sense of control. That’s how I know things are escalating too much.

You gotta open up to someone in your family about this man, they will care when you truly level with em.

Quit your job, move back in with your fam

Thank you for sharing this with us. You said that you don't know where to start but can I help you someway or somehow? Just lemme know if u want someone to talk to. Okay?

Meditate on it
Sit alone in a quiet place and confront yourself and the issues your dealing with
Once you come to terms with your situation and your internal struggle it’s time to find a solution and take action
I believe in you Deliveranze

This is a really good suggestion

bro u need to go get some help rn if you cutting yourself that s*** gottta stop
have you slept at all

I try, I told my mom about it last night. And her reaction just seems callous to me. I have asked for therapy but it never seems like anything gets done.

jordan b peterson

u just like me twin

Yeah I slept pretty decently. But my job usually requires me to get up at 4 am and work till 2:30 or 3. I called off work today because I vomited 6 times in less than an hour. I just don’t have energy to do anything else by the time the day ends. And I just lost interest in a lot of things. Music, Games, Movies, etc. and then being left alone with my thoughts makes me think about all the terrible things I’ve done throughout life and I feel better off dead

i feel like gregor samsa every day

Thanks Mr C. I think looking for a therapist wouldn’t be a bad first move to helping myself

you told her but did u show her? im sorry it seems like she doesn't care. cuz that's like the one thing you're lookin for rn.

some good advice itt from other ppl, I hope some of it helps.

Thanks S3R14L. That’s really nice of you.

It’s crazy how much letting just one person in can lighten the burden and make dealing with stuff seem manageable

i will say i have super intense social anxiety and switching to a remote job really helped

not sure if thats an option available to you but i been through identical s*** and thats the one thing that alleviate some of it

It’s not that my parents don’t necessarily care but they think mental health is a temporary thing that fades easily. They’re pushing 70 so it wasn’t really something they ever talked about in their youth. But you’re right. I do need someone to talk to that cares. And there are some really nice people here. I just wish I could talk more because I’m by myself at home and none of them are coming back for awhile (my mom might be staying over at my grandmas)

peace to OP dealing with this stuff takes time

find your pace and commit to bettering yourself. its ok to feel this way and its all temporary, no matter what it may seem like

think about the little version of yourself and give that kid a hug

my parents was pretty old too about the same age when I was in a similar situation as u. it got real for them when they saw what I was doing to myself.

it gonna get better you just gotta make a couple hard decisions for an easier life.

go outside and get some sun itll help clear your head trust me. look in the direction of the sun but dont stare at it

ur not worthless ur life has value ur mind just playing tricks on you rn op

Come to Marxism brother

Gave me realization of self value

You're telling him to move from one abusive spouse to another. Absolutely shameful.

Marxism is a philosophical means of a***ysis

Not a label