I want to resort back to taking psychedelics but I feel that I haven’t been in the right mindset for them

it is honestly an epidemic
young men now more than ever need a healthy social circle of friends and very few of us have them

that's why so many ppl are addicted to social media, bc they don't have friends irl

I feel you man

I've always been someone who never had friends even as a child, but you never get used to the feeling of having nobody in your corner

I feel the same way but about opiates

I miss the feeling

but at the same time, when I use heavily they make me wanna crash out

Whoa man that’s heavy, none of us want you feeling any sort of way. In what ways have you been doing to suppress it?

haha it's cool tbh, when I say crash out it's not really self deletion or hurting people
more so just the lowered inhibitions make me wanna really say what's on my mind to ppl like my d***head boss or certain family members that just irk me. but I never try to stand up for myself or make waves you know

Its not even just the euphoria feeling from the meds that I miss, it's the ability to express my anger and frustration without feeling bad about it

I think its unhealthy to abuse d****, but also unhealthy to turn on myself and hold onto all these emotions

mostly what I do to suppress that side is just bump good music, consume podcasts, read books and stuff, content that puts me on path to lead a better life and not fall victim to my impulses that will only lead me astray

meditation helps me hella too, it just gives me peace, helps me feel closer to God and to the spiritual energy that I lacked for a long time

I fell off the wagon bc at one point earlier this year i would get like 20 minutes in every day but nowadays i've been busy
meditation practice does me good when I'm in my groove, I feel like nothing can knock me off my square

Ahhh ok I see what you mean now. But that’s great to hear I’ve been wanting to get into meditating and Yoga for quite some time now but it’ll happen sooner than later. I definitely agree with you on some points you made too

ive f***ed 7 different people in the last 7 days and there’ll be another tomorrow

i actually f***ing hate myself i feel so callous

rockstar lifestyle fr

hope you're strapping the jimmy on

hope you are still here

please maintain hope that life is worth it

Why is it so hard to be happy?

I feel like I can do it with people but when I'm by myself sometimes this weird self hate s*** just creeps in.
I obsessed on my mistakes things that I shouldn't have said that most people probably don't give two thoughts about.

Maybe it's just my anxiety spiking a day after drinking. Idk

I seem in good spirits and then suddenly everything just falls out.

I don't know what it is.

ALCOHOL

Some of this life stuff, is realizing you probably shoudlve held it in, not overshared, got really consistent with a journal, and kept your stoic frame. Now look at us…

Yeah remembered seeing an article a few months back about the singleness of men 18-29 years old, as well as 30-45 now too. It's dangerous. There's a large problem now with this. Nobody wants to be social or there's just weird behaviors now too. The dating standards are stupid and there's just confusion on how to even navigate this as people within our age range. It's not the world we grew up in.

at last

canceled on them

forcing myself back to abstinence

unfortunately that was my only coping mechanism for a little bit so back to the void of constant SI at night

I love rain

rain = fire

You typed my life

I'm so worried. I feel like I should not have come to work.

Anxiety is really starting to dictate my life again...

(Movin' forward, movin' forward, movin' forward)
Movin' forward, keep movin' forward
Something was wrong (Keep movin' forward)
Couldn't hold on, why? (Keep movin' forward)
So long (Keep movin' forward)
Sit here in this storm (Keep movin' forward)
Time goes on (Keep movin' forward)
Really couldn't find my way out (Keep movin' forward)
Of the storm (Keep movin' forward)
Which way do I go?