oh damn y’all haven’t even met yet

okay ngl you’ll have to play it cool at first to see how she feels about you, yfm?

don’t fold and have a good time fam

No we have met and spent quite a bit of time together (mostly in a group, but we went on one date I guess you could call it, but where nothing happened), it’s a complicated situation lol

But yeah overall the advice still holds, I’m just gonna vibe out and put my best foot forward, I know I can do that when I’m with her, but she’s running my mind right now and it’s stressful but oh well

i understand bro but you got this don’t overthink it and just do you

Yuh mostly just posting here to let some steam off. Appreciate it man

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stopped smoking weed an all my negative thoughts an emotions are vanishing

i think weed can help keep u from becoming manic but it seems not to rly protect against depression

Guys I've been doing so well for a while.

Had an extremely stressful day. Bosses are on my ass.

I can't get it off my mind and I'm depressed I think. I've just been pacing for hours switching between anxiety, anger and sadness.

Today has set me back quite a bit.

I think my life can be great with a good job. I have no idea how I'll ever accomplish this and I have to wait until bare minimum March. So I'm just in for it guys.

For my friends struggling. This hit home for me

My mind is beating me up.
My partner has undergone surgery 3 times for a disease but the surgery has not been successful.

My feelings about this is so complex.
I feel like my life in a whirlwind, at anytime my partner can break down an fell the room with dark emotions.
I am sick with stress and I hate this environment, but it’s not my partners fault, it is the disease.
I f***ing hate my partners disease, but at moments I am beginning to see my partner and the disease as one.

It is so f***ing hard to be in this!
Had to get this of my chest

I have this vision of me dying and watching the news in the afterlife like God damn I'm so happy I died before all that s*** happened

one of em days...

im scared

might have to stop taking vraylar getting some weird side effects

Feeling so low but I know I'll be good tomorrow morning

Me this morning

I'm just waiting for something bad to happen

time moving so fast is really stressing me out

thought this video is very interesting. i like how he talks about the different parts of your mind, how when youre healthy these different identities live in peace, but you never really have control over your mind or yourself, youre more or less controlled by these different voices

Edit: this video goes into some sort of dark topics so if ur rly depressed maybe don't watch it rn

I wonder what the value of relationships is

Like I feel as if I am better off alone

I think about like a romantic partner and tbh that s*** seems so weird to me. Like I don't wanna talk to anyone that often. I don't wanna have to always be replying to random small talk and flirty s*** that I don't care about. I barely even have a s***drive so I don't even care about that. We make f***ing b****es seem so cool and important but it's rly not that great. But most people find all their happiness in relationships, that's thats confusing, why am I so different?

Honestly it don't matter what I want. The fact is for some reason my brain is wired differently an cus of that I'll probably never find love. I probably already been thru the grueling process of making myself numb

My mental health and life in general is at an all time low. I just feel very trapped in my current situation so I've been turning to distractions more than ever which makes my problems worse. I'm in a crappy job that led me on with the promise of further training and qualifications but I got the rug pulled from up under me. My family are all arguing all the time too. I'm socially isolated on top of all of this as well. I can fix these things but it just feels s***ty in the moment.

The first thing I need to do is move on from distractions.

whenever im being intimate i dont know whether or not im being authentic or acting and its messing with me

Getting sick = mental health going down the drain