I can’t tell if the adderall is turning me into a normal happy person whose brain is working properly or if I’m just geeked up. I can look people in the eye, I’m making small talk with my dad who I’ve been giving the silent treatment to for years, my sense of perspective and emotional regulation has improved, etc

hows ur come down after ur addy wears off? It makes me depressed and irritated

I'm just sad

If I didn't have a speech impediment I could of had alot of puss

I don’t crash, I just feel like my normal self

I think doing coke for a while mixed with antidepressants fixed my brain

God I would love some coke

i need to leave the pills alone

depressed af

high af with a blade in my hand

time like rn im so happy i dont have a gun cus id probably do it rn

I went on my first date, it went OK but I don't think we are a good match relationship wise, for some reason this precipitated a pretty severe depression that I'm still dealing with, I'm wondering if I'm just not ready to approach romance or relationships and idk when I will be

Woke up down and tired af

I have to find a new therapist because my therapist that iv been seeing twice a month for the past 6 months moved locations and is only doing virtual meetings... tht is fcked up .

do you find that you prefer in person? my therapist is all virtual just over a video call and i dont really mind it, actually prefer it sometimes

obv nothing wrong with switching therapists but if you like your current one, you can try a virtual one and see how it goes

iv tried virtual twice, something about it I just can't get with. id rather meet face to face to talk about my issues.

I just dont know anymore

Adderall’s been helping me think logically and value my peace

Maybe it made u feel hopeless and disappointed

Usually after a month off of it its effects wear off. What happens when you get off it depends from person to person. Some people don't need anymore and they feel fine. Some people the opposite. For me i just go back to how i used to be because my issues are long term if that makes sense

Yea I think it just felt like I wasted a lot of time when I should kept looking for the right person

Haven't heard this one before. How much coke were you doing?

I need to switch my meds they sedate me too much