I dont know what I did wrong

I dont understand people

Just want to be happy

The nights used to feel warm, but they've been getting colder

Melancholic sunday

Niggas just in here venting, huh? Well, I’m overwhelmed and so numb to a lot of s***. I work full-time as a salaried manager, I have a photography/videography business that’s been getting a lot of traction, I’m on the payroll at church, and they keep getting me involved with s***. I guess I don’t know how to turn s*** down. Due to being overwhelmed, I would lean towards p*** to take my mind off things but that has been replaced with s***addiction I guess. I stepped outside of my relationship and now I got other women attached to me that I have to spend time on. S***therapy ain’t really helping either, but I’m trying.

I feel like I need a reset. I would never kill myself, but I definitely be wanting to get away at times. Separate from everyone and their expectations of me

Remember, you aren’t always at fault. Sometimes no one is. I’m not saying you should stop looking inwards, but a lot of people have mistreated me, and made me feel like i was at fault.

Does anyone know how to tell when an adderall dose is too much. I went from 10 - 20 mg xr, and i feel borderline stimulant high at times. My productivity and drive has improved, but I’ve had trouble sleeping, and felt more emotional and sad at times, like I did on 0 adderall.

I have been getting paranoid lately, but I also have good reason to be.

Take a few days off from everything, and get some rest. Spend some time thinking about what parts of your life do and don’t fulfill you.

In life you gotta look out for yourself. Take people asking you to take on extra responsibilities as a sign that they respect And trust you, but know that they’ll still feel that way if you can’t help them. And if they don’t? Then they’re just using you.

It sounds like you do a lot for the people in your life and that’s all well and good, but if you give all of yourself away, there wont be anything left. Id probably drop the church commitment.

Thank you for your advice and input. Great perspective

Happiness comes from within. It sounds corny but fr. Loving yourself changes everything. Tap into what makes you happy and love life, then pursue that relentlessly. In 2021 and early 2022 I hated my life, but I realized it was because of my circumstances. Changed all the circumstances (wasn’t necessarily easy btw) but my life has changed for better 100%. I really hope this helps dude. All love

anger can feel like such a dumbass emotion sometimes, especially when you know you technically shouldn’t be mad but you can’t help it anyway. now you gotta do all this nonlinear self-reflection to get where you already know where to go which is usually just some form of “just don’t be mad”

Haven’t smoked weed in 2 months n im noticeably sharper mentally but ngl I be bored. Much more nicotine.

Saw some quote awhile ago that said boredom is an insult to your intelligence you’ll fill the time with something im sure

I used to get books from the library and be like yeah im gonna knock these out this week after work, but when id smoke id inevitably just end up playing video games. Now I get to those books much more consistently but in the back of my mind it’s like damn I could totally smoke and do this. Already feeling like I have so many brain cells back tho, let’s keep going fam

F*** I’ve been wanting to end it all lately