i have the partner of my dreams but its too late for love

i need go to therapy so f***ing bad man but i just genuinely dont think i deserve it

Called moms crying last night lol.

On everything I aint ever gon be this low ever again.

Mentally lowkey im sinking deeper

Maybe it was necessary

Like 5 close people to me all of a sudden breaking down/going through it and using me as their rock rn, its a lot.

my anxiety has been so bad lately man idk why

supposed to go out tn but idk if i can managee

Home is where you don't have to carry all of the worry (Oh, no, no)
You don't have to bury (Bury all) all of the memories

im in a simulation

other people aren’t real

im not real

nvm im real af

i wish i could just help people

spent like 4 hours chilling at the library

Just got into work and feel like im about to have a f***ing anxiety attack over nothing

I feel like the biggest idiot on earth

Motherfuckers be like
"Oh, you wanna cry in a Toyota? Or you wanna cry in a Rolls Royce?"
I don't wanna cry at all, how 'bout that one?
I don't wanna shed a tear no matter what car I'm driving
If I'm on a bus, a train, a trolley, a bike
I-I don't wanna cry
I don't wanna cry in no Rolls Royce as much as I don't wanna cry in a Toy-, I don't wanna cry!
I don't wanna cry, I wanna be happy!
I wanna be happy in a Toyota, I wanna be happy in a Rolls Royce
I wanna be happy on a bike, I wanna be happy walking!
I don't wanna take no sad walks, clear-my-head walks, I'm tired of it!
I wanna be happy, and I choose happiness
I choose that! How 'bout that?
How 'bout I don't wanna cry, no matter what vehicle or what modes of transportation I'm on
I don't wanna shed a tear
I don't wanna cry 'less it's happy tears
If it ain't happy tears, I don't care what it is

man.... hearing this a week after a breakdown

WTTTTTTTTTFFFFF!!!!!!!

Everything bad

is all I want too much to ask?

i desperately need somebody by my side i feel comfortable with