rough night!

Scary part of me misses depression and wants me to regress again

I can’t let myself do that to myself

I must kill the old me once and for all.

Thinking about canceling my therapist subscription

Bruh I think I’m finna skip therapy tonight

what's skin therapy?

Skip ⏭, and I ended up just rescheduling till next week 💯

Really struggling with existential dread these days. Can't see the point of it all sometimes.

Killed the old me then i rebirth

i let everyone down

Nothing works

I will forever be unsatisfied with life without her

What’s the point

I just want to get married and have children.

Sigh

If it’s not her I don’t want it

Called and talked to a black therapist for the 1st time today bout my feelings of stress/overwhelmed.

Ngl, the to-do list thing actually helped

Need to stop eating so much

Not feeling ok, think I’m gonna let the tears flow

I can't lie I think I'm in the grip of some bizarre paranoid delusions, I've realised that it I told people the thought processes I go through every day I'd sound insane, I think if I move somewhere else I'll shake them off, they seem to get stronger with familiar surroundings

Crying puking and pissing my pants