been up for 28 hours

My job has resources for mental health, I myself utilize them. But theres a LOT of latinos here too who struggle w/ english and cant a find spanish speaking mental health specialist.

Seek help

had a f***ing nightmare I can’t deal with this s*** anymore

u have survived this long

def need to prioritize moving out of my parents house this year for my mind's sake

😔

I had a coworker ask if I used to cut and for the first time ever I felt comfortable telling her I used to and wow

i don't know why i'm not really suicidal anymore especially considering the lifelike nightmares and overwhelming anxiety i get every day now. it's such a drag but i feel like i can't do anything but keep it pushing.

Kind of a nsfw thing to ask ngl. Y’all close?

We cool and we’re pretty open with each other. She’s a window and very religious

but in context of today I was telling her about my day and kinda stressed out and wanted to get a tattoo to get my mind off things and that’s when she asked

She said her older daughter used to cut and I’m assuming her daughter did the same thing to cope

She asked how long it’s been since it last happened but in a very nonchalant way & was happy with my progress but like I have never had that convo with someone in person and it really made it seem like it’s no big deal in a good way somehow?

escaping the black pill

That's good. I think a lot of the time people, including myself, overdo the part where we try to help. Just talking about it without any real goal can make it not such a 'thing'

been so tired

Dude yes it’s like walking on a thin line but personally I suck so bad at trying to be empathetic when someone is going through it well not empathetic just not knowing the right thing to say it makes me feel like a jackass

Real. Pick up vitamins if they are on sale by you. Winter I be sleeping for fun,but wish it was gym consistently

When you feel nihilistic and don't know how to care again or if you will ever have highs as high as previous years of life <<<

I am truly just numb. Friendships you build you see them less then when you do see them they are either distracted, overworked or force you into their stress or drama like not vent to you but instead involve you in it. Wish I reacted better to some stress I faced in 2022.

At a certain point you just isolate. You no longer care enough to be social. Keep up with social media topics or much of anything. Alcohol quickly grows boring. You recognize some past life regrets you may have or think of all ways you could be making more money or be more "successful" or find love.

Its easy to eventually just stop caring

I feel the same way bro, hang in there

oh yeah we just keep going . Obviously wish we could be our full selves for family, friends, others and ourself but got to be patient with brain

IS HE NUTS? NO! HE'S INSAAAAAAANE

Was able to go to sleep around 10pm yesterday, usually can't sleep til 3-4

im gonna die unhappy, think ive accepted it