Positive Vibes

Can’t even eat anymore

Second therapy : no crying this time

Just vented a lot. Really liked that my therapist understood.

anyone itt suffer from anxiety

i got big ass attachment issues idk how to get over it smh

I’ve done a good job at moving on in a lot of areas of life. It feels like this journey from crypto starting in 2020 to now has been so much longer.

I can’t imagine going back to the way things were, ever. My obsessive side comes out with this, I want to be the absolute best at what I do and in my mind I am.

This keeps the days interesting, it keeps me motivated to move forward. It isn’t until I lay down at night for bed that I start to miss things from the past

These pills I’m on for my PTSD and anxiety are remarkable. I just feel such a greater deal of control over my emotions. Haven’t had an anxiety attack in over a month, I have no fears of doing stuff I used to do.

Really it has helped me appreciate so much more about certain people and things. Another big milestone is gonna be hit likely December, complete retirement then set my life in whatever path I want. Scares me tbh, but traveling overseas is a major goal. As long as my mind is stable I’ll do it

Sometimes I forget how to think. There are so many options

Staying consistent, but placid with thoughts is difficult.

Having to think with a mindset that gets you to your goals while also staying "realistic"

S***s weird, I feel dissociated from "reality"

But I don't think I'm doing poorly tbh.

I think I'm doing really well.

I just think I'm doing bad when I think about how others probably think of my situation. Know my dad is super upset with my life decisions, I guess my dissociation is coming from just not caring.

Things just going to have to work out slowly for me, which is fine. My pace is the best pace

my most productive self evaluation so far

people said his brain was infected....

mood

am i staring at the sun or blood vessels in my eyelids

the medication is not working

I have shown no progress

at least paxil makes my polar suicidal

liquid swords?

yes, the sample at least

Doing d**** is just a war with boredom but they sure to get me

Such a heavy depression lately man. Such a hopeless feeling

Have no passion for even creative activities anymore

me too

Are u on meds? On gabapentin three times a day, lucmicdol, latuda, and x**** as needed lmao.

Still feel like s*** just less anxiety

Nah no meds, I'd probably benefit from adderall though cuz my attention span has not been existent for a while now

sleep schedule been terrible, basically slept for 18+ hours yesterday and feel no better than a few days ago when I went 2 days without sleep

this has been an ongoing problem for at least a year now though. complete malaise and a major uptick in social anxiety I always wrongly thought I was above

the meds doesn't hinder your creativity?

Too much sleep def makes u more depressed, i know from experience. You should def try meds cause they do help ppl but there can be sides/ and it could take awhile to find right ones.
Ive still been looking for the right concoction for years

Do the meds hinder my creativity i have no idea. Ive heard that idea before but i dont really think thats the case