Keep running back to someone treating me like s***

only I can be unfair to myself

and the worst thing I can do is listen to my fears

that being said, f*** both.

Spent way to much time on the internet today.

Need to rest, but "resting" even if I have it scheduled is difficult.

Feel restless and guilty.

Think my dopamine levels are really f***ed up or something.

Everything feels dull

Finally moving on feels good
No longer going to bask in the highs of this person and dwell in the lows, I deserve better than that

Everything is s***

I feel very insecure

the only thing holding myself back is me and i can never win

self sabotage, fear of failure, and feelings of unworthyness has been plagueing me my whole life

eliminating that is no.1 on the chopping block

you're worth more than that bro they'll be the one sorry once you've moved on and doing better hanging with people who value you and treat you with respect.

How's this s*** possible. Truly unreal.

❤️
Hope you doing well brother

Damaged people fighting for our place in the world, nature is cruel, and we are at war with ourselves and our own people.

Life isn't sweet. It just is. Delude the self into happiness and fullfillment as dictated by our biology, and claim a higher power to derive meaning or to rationalize the irrational.

I'm loosing grip. Purpose is an illusion.

I am incredibly happy for anyone who makes it in this world, it's a beautiful thing to see. I just think I've dug a hole too deep.

Someday I may find what I'm looking for, but as days pass the future looks increasing bleak.

Despondent and alone on this island I call my throne. Prayers to God are just an echo in a cave, we get what we wish for, it just is never the same as envisioned, and nothing is free.

I don’t even won’t me

There is no way to win if I kms I'm a piece of s*** if I wallow in s*** and do nothing im a piece of s***

Told my psychiatrist its making me suicidal and he increased the dose? Lol

log off
thank me later

Anxiety just went thru the f***ing roof :(

Anyone else feel horribly guilty when you call out of work? I called out today because I can hardly stand with my back pain, but I can't even enjoy some (paid) time off because I feel guilty for hurting the business/my coworkers and I can't shake the feeling all day that my supervisors and coworkers are sittin around talkin s*** about me.

Has capitalistic propaganda gotten to me? Anyone else get this way? f***

crashing. hard

tired of being nice tired of being treated like a child tired of no one taking me serious and letting people trample over me.

girls , friends they all treat me like a joke i’m way too grown for all this f***ery.

i gotta beg for stuff to happen, gotta repeat myself i’m not a lil homie bro f*** is everyone on. straight up been disrespectful towards me.

Down bad