Tried without meds couple days
Actually felt good to be sober me again
Less anxiety also in public

I feel like the ability to mask without being too self aware of ur "damaged" self is harder to maintain when medicated
Cause its like im baring myself out there

When sober i find it easier to hide
But obv my impulsivity goes straight up again, ability to control and categorize emotions etc is also hellz difficult, memory loss etc

Double edged sword

I can feel the decline once again.

It sounds dramatic but I need to get something creatively out, I just don't know what. It feels like I have to vomit

I don't feel hopeless today

I'm so stupid s*** was going very well for me and then I did something stupid that made me have a panic attack and now I've been on the verge of another one these past 2 weeks anxiety has taken over

soooo much anxiety rn

That s*** flipped all the way around, I need to get a psychiatrist.

God damn

I am nothing, and nothing is me.

Does anyone else with depression also experience symptoms of IBS (Irritable bowel syndrome)? There seems to be a connection between gut microbiota and mental health

Ever since I quit Lexapro about 2 months ago I've been feeling the worst depression of my life, along with many devastating side effects and I was totally ok before that.

I'm gonna see a gastroenterologist soon and test for gut bacteria.

10 months of constant neurotic pain & agony. Here's to not many more! 🙏

in the last few hours i've had a seizure, pissed the bed, and ended up in A&E with a dislocated shoulder.

this s*** escalated so fast man i was watching a soccer game and boom next thing you know i'm lying in bed with insane pain i had to pop 3 oxys to deal with it now i'm hospital getting my bloods done

back to the drawing board

Been doing mildly better in more general terms - I've been able to sleep enough at least that my appetite isn't bothered (which is definitely the real big thing if anything) and I'm not extraneously fatigued during the day, but in a more general sense I'm still having a lot of trouble sleeping day to day; night time just feels like a huge burden every time it rolls around.
Been practicing sleep hygiene as much as possible but don't feel it's helping a ton. Got better for awhile for awhile but past 2-3 days feel like I've relapsed a bit with sleep problems; basically several hours to fall asleep and then only sleeping like 3-4 hours waking up at like hour intervals. Haven't had a ton of luck with melatonin or CBD so I think I probably need to go on break from them for awhile longer before returning to them unfortunately. Still got 2 weeks until I can see my psychiatrist as well

exercise and caffeine helps me mostly

but yeah when I get acid reflux last year , i was pretty depressed and that led me to getting like ibs type issues(SIBO maybe).

I ended up drinking more caffeine and started working out and now im doing decent for now

feeling like my “this is all meaningless” to suicidal thoughts are stopping me from being consistent in doing literally anything in my life but idk

I feel bad :(

I haven't been in this thread for a while. I feel like I've been suppressing my emotions for the sake of everyone around me, man.

Me hurty