Don’t see anyway up

The loneliness always hits me at night

dang i feel like trauma has made me age so fast physically and stunted my emotional maturation

the most loser-ass combination of traits

Haven’t felt like this since before meds everything it’s undone is creeping back and I’m scared for real

holy s*** just like that I hate my life and wish I was dead

Been really depressed this week

Just wanna be alone and cry

I just don’t know how to fix how I feel man

Been depressed in 7th grade and been on a downhill ever since. And with my mom’s passing last year, I just feel absolutely devastated and just don’t want to be alive anymore

Devastated

Couldn’t really describe how I’ve been feeling since my mom’s passing but devastated feels right

Same bruh lol

I always get compliments from customers at work about how positive I am and how great my energy is compared to my other coworkers lol.

Like I get that OFTEN. On Friday, I had this lady go on and on about how if she doesn’t see me working, she doesn’t get anything from my department lol. Just going on and on that she wishes there was more people like me

And it’s funny cus man I’m so f***in depressed and sad all the time lol

I guess I’m just good at faking it

Feel you bro

I just hide all my feelings and everyone thinks I’m so calm and level headed when I just so f***in sad and angry all the time

When I do try to explain how I feel to people I trust, they just don’t seem to f***in understand how I’m feeling or don’t give me the things I want / need to hear and make me feel worse for even trying to let out that emotion

So what’s the point of expressing how I feel if it doesn’t help….

Fake it til you make it really don’t be cutting it at times

Earlier this week a coworker asked if I was going okay (mentally) and said she been praying for me and what not

y’all i just wanted to drop in here and say that it WILL get better if you put effort into it i’m living proof

i was depressed for about 2-3 years and i made it

everyone be well!

I mean that’s depression for ya. It’s not a one size fits all and the answer to solving this impossible feeling is difficult cus it’s different for everyone

I think I’ve found the right people to be around and be vulnerable with, it’s I just tend to push them away

Yeah I feel you, meeting new people can def temporarily make me happy but then I make up some scenarios in my head as to why they wouldn’t like me lol

Yeah sometimes it gets to be a bit too overwhelming holding it all in and trying to keep it together that sometimes “fake it til you make it” with happiness just can’t cut it all the time

Bro that s*** gets me shook when someone can see through your fake happy s*** and sees how sad you are lol. Like damn, someone sees the real me.

Oh exactly. Like is f***in hard in general. Everyone goes through s***. Ups and down are a given in life

But when people jaut write you off with some bullshit “it gets better! Just go to therapy and you’ll be fine!” Like it’s so easy to give those answers but like I said, it’s easier said then done

To me, I feel like depression is like cancer. It’s not something that ever goes away. Maybe with the right help, the pain can be reduced temporarily….. but it eventually comes back and slowly chips away at you until it overcomes you

Was crying my eyes out to these two songs.

I feel so much better.

I guess holding it in got too much to bare and letting out those feelings made me feel a bit better

Still feeling sad but feeling just 10% better is such a sense of relief

Yeah that person in particular I just said I wasn’t doing too good and didn’t know why

But another one is a counselor & she always asks if whst happens at work effects me and if I have someone to confine my feelings to to release stress and all that. F***ing free therapy sessions with her lol

But yeah lately keeping it together has been an hassle I’m wanting to let everything out but I can’t and when I do it’s legit just screaming in a pillow. This is ass

Alone again

i wanna die

my condolences to you, that must be so difficult to deal with

I'm the same way my brother

My Dad is going on 2 years, his birthday would have been next month. It's been f***ing with my head all week