Feeling suicidal again. Had a good run of 9 months but the feeling is back

what’s the point ahahhahahahaha

Out alone in the city on Valentine’s Day

absolutely rekt over here

In university and I have no friends and im not experiencing that "college life" makes me feel so lonely man .

been 25 days

think I'm noticing some positive effects

i'm also quitting weed tho, from heavy daily use I only used yesterday out of the last week, so hard to say what is what

but considering i've had basically zero negative side effects I'm pleased

give it another 2-3 weeks for the full effect to sort of settle in + let the thc get out my system and see where I'm at

Whenever I’m depressed I really want to have a kid lol

Feel like I just threw 2 years away I know it’s not true but I just feel like I’m back in the same spot after accomplishing so much

I hate the cycles but at least I can remind myself it’ll be good again someday

Love you all 💜

i feel you im kinda feeling the same way but u gotta remember you're probably being too hard on yourself, been a tough 2 years impacted everybody differently and everybody deals with it differently too

im no longer depressed in the sense that i feel a lot of negative emotion im just dead inside tbh

knew it was like that fr when i was meeting this girl for the first time and i didnt feel anything

no nerves no excitement i rly just didnt care at all lol

Take care of it now honestly. I became like that & just let it rock & in hindsight I’m able to understand better I should have addressed it.
I’m so detached from everything now it’s like torment.

A little drunk is better than dead

This illness is a curse .

Well after a breakdown I will be finally seeing a therapist or counselor or sorts that my family is hooking me up with

I’m scared

💜

I’m glad you’re getting help. That’s the first step.

Going to therapy can be scary. So many emotions, thoughts and things you want to say.

The first couple sessions might be intense ( especially when you have a lot to say)

My recommendation is to find a therapist that you feel comfortable with and make that connection. It will tremendously help in your growth.

Best of luck

niggas done diagnosed me with avoidant personality disorder lmaoooo

Most important year of my life so far and it is not in my hands. I hope everything turns out okay but it's impossible not to feel like a dead man walking. I don't know. Day by day.

Yeah my friend told me exactly what you said. I’m gonna do some more research with this link my dad sent and what not I wanna get this done by the start of next month if not sooner

Thanks Janet!

feel like i'm putting a lot of pressure on myself talking to all these people that i haven't talked to in years

like no way i can go from being a recluse, to the point where i literally didn't step foot out of my house for three months, to reconnecting with people just like that in the span of way less than a year

i know i'm feeling a bit better about things right now, better than i was feeling this time last year for sure, but man i can't help but feel like i'm doing way too much too soon

the taller the mountain the sweeter the view

BEFORE NEO OR JET LI I WAS THE ONE