Feb 18, 2022so stressed feel sixk to my stomaxh rn f***
- Feb 18, 2022·3 repliesmill
feel like i'm putting a lot of pressure on myself talking to all these people that i haven't talked to in years
like no way i can go from being a recluse, to the point where i literally didn't step foot out of my house for three months, to reconnecting with people just like that in the span of way less than a year
i know i'm feeling a bit better about things right now, better than i was feeling this time last year for sure, but man i can't help but feel like i'm doing way too much too soon
yeah i f***ed up
doing waaaaaaaaaaaaay more than im comfortable with
Feb 18, 2022·1 replyHow do I get a gf and I’m still miserable and depressed
Feb 18, 2022just got laid off from work lol
Feb 18, 2022millyeah i f***ed up
doing waaaaaaaaaaaaay more than im comfortable with
I’ve had a similar struggle. Be patient with yourself, you’ve come far already.
Trying to make up for lost time will just create a painful cycle
Feb 19, 2022feeling very lonely tonight
- Feb 19, 2022mill
yeah i f***ed up
doing waaaaaaaaaaaaay more than im comfortable with
ooooooh weeeeeeeeeeeeee am i embarrassed
Feb 19, 2022·1 replythe calm before the storm
- Feb 19, 2022aLIEN
the calm before the storm
😔
Feb 20, 2022Im not cut out for this life
- Feb 20, 2022·edited
what if i started healing earlier
what if i started healing earlier
what if i started healing earlier
what if i started healing earlier - Feb 20, 2022·1 replymill
yeah i f***ed up
doing waaaaaaaaaaaaay more than im comfortable with
lord be with me please!!
- Feb 20, 2022mill
lord be with me please!!
i need to just take a nap and hope for the best
jf this s*** dont work ima be so embarrassed ima jump off a bridge (not really, my ego gonna be bruised like a mf tho)
Feb 20, 2022i wanna kill myself
plants 🌻Feb 21, 2022plantsbeen 25 days
think I'm noticing some positive effects
i'm also quitting weed tho, from heavy daily use I only used yesterday out of the last week, so hard to say what is what
but considering i've had basically zero negative side effects I'm pleased
give it another 2-3 weeks for the full effect to sort of settle in + let the thc get out my system and see where I'm at
32 days on the meds
now that im also free from weed 13 of the last 14 days im feeling really clear and sharp. and finally i am not focusing that clarity on my depression. i just...feel so much better
also hit 85% on my weekly habits/goals last week
and went on a truly lovely trip down to a nature preserve with one of my only friends yesterday. and she arranged it! its so rare somebody reaches out to do things with me...
she is such a kind soul, and she looks at me like the open book I am, but she's one of the only people who actually flips through the pages. i could cry if i focused deeply enough on the blessed feelings i have towards her and the way she treats me
its all coming together guys. after 10 years of moderate to severe depression that had me days from a very well planned end to it all...its finally coming together
be good to yourselves guys, you deserve that kindness
Feb 22, 2022you got dis king
Feb 22, 2022Yeah I think I’m at my rock bottom now
- Feb 22, 2022
now you're out in the world searchin for your soul...
- plants 🌻Feb 23, 2022·1 reply
how quickly progress can vanish
Feb 24, 2022·1 replyHurryUpDevil4AngelHow do I get a gf and I’m still miserable and depressed
Maybe a girlfriend isn't what you need. Maybe you don't even like having a girlfriend.