Stay strong king, we in this together

Randomly got very paranoid

I got 21 questions and they’re all about whether you’re starting to dislike me

What’s the point of friends?

<3

There’s one and it’s calling me

sweetheart

I can’t carry your pain with me anymore when you don’t even acknowledge mine

I disagree but nice to see an earl fan

Who itt has any way to contact @BigDckBandit outside of here?

damn this weather is really f***ing with me like it does every year

but it’s combined with some heavy depressed vibes due to:

• never leaving my house anymore cause work from home

• only seeing one person everyday, and living far from all my friends. feel so detached from them too, like i have no friends left cause we hardly talk

• my gf wants to get married, but it’s at the point where idek of i could get a full wedding party anymore, and i doubt anyone would actually want to be bothered to do anything dope for my bachelor party

• also feel like one person i did wrong making moves and about to surpass me

• i had an opportunity to achieve my dreams but fumbled it, lost my passion for it after that, now the person from the previous bullet possibly took advantage of it

• family issues

• just feel so bored with life, nothing sounds good or exciting anymore. doing the same exact s*** everyday

• life is passing me by, i’m getting older and older with no real dream anymore to look forward too

i want to recalibrate and start working on my old my passion again, but feel so uninspired, plus it’s so hard too loving with my gf because i need to be left alone when i do it, i have outdated equipment, etc

so much in my head, feels like no chance of me obtaining peace within myself

I want to apologize again but what for?

Why?

My natural go to is to try and mend stuff. If I feel it’s for the betterment of a relationship I will take the hit to apologize. I was trying to figure out something else “maybe you forgot to apologize for something”. Maybe I did forget something, but your mind has been made up I think.

I think I have a hard time accepting when people don’t want me in their life. My first question is usually “okay but why? What did I do wrong” like that’s sad :/. I don’t want to be that way.

It’s okay for people to want me out, we don’t have to vibe any longer. It’s okay for people to fully know me and eventually dislike me lol. In this regard I care too much about what people think.

I think that’s part of the reason I wanted my medication increased and lied to my doctor. I wanted to be like a drone, I wanted to feel less. I’m not gonna say this is the last I’ll speak on this because it’s so much more energy put into this one than any other time or relationship. I’ll try not to but I don’t envision getting over this one for a while

I don’t think a post in all my time on ktt has ever hit harder for me

It just makes so much sense. And maybe that’s cause like loyalty is everything to me. But holy s*** does that make so much sense.

Read it last night, wanted to sleep on it. Did and it was still as wtf to me as ever. I know what I’ve gotta do now though. I’m saving this one forever tbh

if this is real i might as well off myself for good. im sorry i couldn't do more

Not true No nut november

Hmm

Fun ass weekend . Now it’s back to being locked in.

Focus and productivity .

i aint nutted yet this month

no :(