i hate how my life feels like its on a repeat button.. just mediocrity day after day after day. sad people enjoy 9 to 5s. depressing people push people to get 9 to 5s. i want something different badly

I need to try harder

Matter of fact I just need to try period

I don't know if I should be hard on myself for this, but I've been friends with one of my former coworkers for a while now. Ever since I left, she's been emailing me, so I've been responding. I know she has a crush on me, but I'm afraid I've led her on. I don't see her that way and probably won't ever will. Nevertheless, we've been meeting up on Zoom. I feel kinda bad, but she never confessed to me and I don't want to be the type to reject her when she hasn't said anything directly.

Still here

I've had a couple dreams where Ive met someone and as soon as it started to get really nice...i woke up.

Not the best feeling waking up and knowing that I'm alone..

anybody else themselves read psychology books/content to see wtf is wrong with them?

Although I do take therapy but I find reading that stuff to be really peaceful in a way.

u just gotta make sure she knows you're maybe not looking for the same thing right now, i guess, to put that s*** softly

stronger together,

I'm weaker alone

Thanks!

That's what I'm trying to signal to her. I've been dropping hints here and there, but she keeps saying she's willing to wait for me. I can't be direct about it because I'll just look like a jerk. I just hope she comes to accept it.

Why’d you do this to me?

Really wanna kms

Never mind I’m numb and can’t feel anything

It's called codependency. It's very real. We fall in love with people and they become like a d*** to us. But It can be worked out it's always a problem imo. Some personalities need codependents in there life.

It's a lonely life

Flatline

I started off okay today but pretty much got in my head towards the end of it here. It's kinda the pattern these days I guess

Hey guys hope all is well with all of you!

Sorry I haven’t been as active in the thread :( I’ve been working on my relationship ally this past week trying to get things back to love & happiness. Also I’m still rehabbing my knee.

Hope all of you have a great week and stay safe. Love you all!

Yes I use to do it a lot. When I got out of a really bad relationship I needed to do it to find out why I stayed so long and if there's something wrong with me. It definitely helps to be aware and to know you're not alone but at some point it becomes detrimental. I still do it out of an interest in psychology I'm real interested in people and why they do the things they do. But as for reading about what's wrong with me I don't do that much anymore I talk to a therapist and trust the b**** to let me know if there's a problem.