I always took the high road with you and you manipulated me

You made me feel worthless

And I hate myself because I still want you

I’m so pathetic

I wanna cut you outta my dreams
'Til I'm bleeding out

Even when I’m distancing myself and working on me, you’re still there in my head and I hate it

Can relate so much to this. Heartache f***ing sucks dude.. It f***ing sucks

Lack of sleep got me suicidal n angry & its accidentally spilling out, i need to take better care of myself man.

ily bro

I know it's often a lot more complex than this, but remember to drink water and get enough sleep. Just getting in those healthy habits can improve your state of mind a ton.

Think I’m beginning to spiral

Man

Will try to prevent this and get back on track tomorrow.

Schedule and structure is everything.

This introspection > the usual sulking I do

Yessir! Love this mindset

I think I used up all my emotions bullying myself and feeling sorrow. world is falling apart and I can't seem to care. thinking thoughts of people that I was close with and the thought of reviving that connection is so far from my interest...

I feel like the emotional and happy part of me is like trapped so deep inside me and it wants to be alive and create connections but that part of me is sealed away below a thousand different walls. like sometimes I say something that I guess the 'old me' would want and I look at it as the old me as if I don't want it anymore and I think I don't.
I think what I'm trying to iterate is that I want to feel something other than bad

I’m truly alone again with nobody else in sight. This is sucky, I do not like this. Really not sure what to do here or what the move is. I really feel ready for a close relationship with somebody, I have never been in a better spot mentally or financially.. Maybe this is life’s way of showing me im actually not there yet.

Ofc I had a dream about it. Sigh..

Just fast forward to 3-4 months from now where the missing her is less frequent please

D**** Right ?? ..

Valium, Vicodin and Coffee

😁

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