can i just die in my sleep or something damn

Do antidepressants really work? I was on mine for a bout a week then stopped. Debating on trying again

The older u get the loneliness really intensifies. i jus know ima be in my 40s surrounded by swagless & bland ppl who lost themselves years ago to working & conforming to fit they age group. its rlly downhill from here man

why did you stop ? they don’t really kick in until 4-5 weeks*

S*** was giving me major heartburn and i conveniently decided I dont wanna be dependent on a pill lmao.. I gues ima give them another go cus this s*** been kicking my ass lately

the first few weeks will be rough with the side effects but once your body gets adjusted to your dosage they will eventually go away, and there’s no shame on needing a pill especially if your brain chemistry is already compromised and needs to be corrected
give it a chance and then if you decide it isn’t for you then you can just slowly taper off

I shouldn’t quote this but yeah

unironically wish i could live in dreams fr

i get disappointed heavy when i wake up

comas must be smth else bro

I thought about the idea of just killing myself and feeling free from all this pain more times this year than I ever did in my life

Why? Why did it all have to turn out this way?

And I can’t show this to anyone

It’s f***ing misery

You had to just show me you never cared in the end right

One of the worst nights I've had in a while. I'm convinced that God does not want to see me successful or happy, man.

but you still alive

that's your W fam

enjoy it

I'm emotionally and physically upset right now. All I needed this year was a win, man. Just one f***ing win.

I'll be damned if I'm in my 30s and working warehouse jobs with my children as my only motivation...

s***, i probably shouldn’t be saying it but here we are

feel this on another level

notice most of my dreams take place in my past or involve old friends and people i used to know. guess it’s my subconscious basically telling me that i think about the past too much lmao

haven't posted in here for some time and idk if I should nor if it's appropriate to anymore as I'm no longer in the deep place as I was in not too long ago, I just wanted to let those know who aided me through my worst period (and you should know who you are) that I'm much improved now, as a result of therapy and other such things.

Panic attacks and thinking about suicide are no longer regular occurrences for me, I still have my regular anxieties but they aren't as bad as to stop me from literally leaving my bed anymore. I'm able to get a comfortable nights sleep and I've started seeing friends again irl. I'm sure this year won't be the last time I'm at my deepest point but at least now I'm currently feeling somewhat happy and assured in my identity, I figure it's not worth it to focus on possible downturns along the road into the future.

Again thank you to those people that aided me. I hope your future is just as bright as mine hopefully is. 💖

Congratulations on handling your personal issues. True inspiration for anyone who thinks they can’t conquer their personal issues.

Thanks for sharing and I hope you can continue on living the way you do now!

You good man :( you wanna talk about anything?

Hoping you feel better today and have a great weekend!

Good luck man.

I worked warehouse for 7-8 years and it was alright to me. Made some real good money and had some great co-workers along the way.

Idk about you but management in warehouses is a pretty solid job imo. I could never breakthrough into management in my company so I dipped, but most of the supervisors were making 60k to do little work, with the managers making 75k+ to balance hours and s***.

What exactly would you wanna do that would make you happy if you don’t mind me asking?

Tbh sometimes I day dream about the possibility about being able to see 15 minutes into the future at will, and how greatly that would change my life

life is just note fair