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Im so done my day became even worse than that thanks for everything god or higher power or whatever

Please forgive me for not being good enough even though I don’t deserve forgiveness i did everything i promise and it wasn’t enough , my everything is never enough for anybody

been getting random anxiety

need discipline n routine, gonna start making my sleep schedule more consistent. wake up - cold shower - meditate - take dog on walk all before checking my phone

Stay committed brother and good luck!

Keep pushing my brother your worth it! Love you bro hope you have a good night!

That last sentence is what is most important my brother. To many of us get wrapped up in things we cannot control and it causes us to spiral.

Heartbreak and failure is all apart of the game of life, no changing that. So when it happens we just gotta take our time and heal and move on from the situation. My grandmother had dementia and I watched her fade away for 10 years until there was nothing left. It’s heartbreaking but it’s life so we have to accept.

I hope the best for your situation and your studies. Keep us updated bro and remember to keep pushing forward

If you ever trying to talk bro feel free to message me about whatever you got going on!

Thank you brother I appreciate the kind words ♥️

I think we're all better at giving advice than taking it.

Hope everyone had a great holiday!

For those of you that know my knee is about 85% recovered and and 30% ready for sports. Been arguing a lot with my girl about some stuff but I think it’s just the pandemic putting pressure on us.

Hope all of y’all stay safe and continue to work towards being better! Love all of y’all man!

Doing pretty well recently all things considered. My Dad’s surgery is this Friday, I’m scared as f*** but I’m just acting like it’ll go smooth but preparing in case it doesn’t. I haven’t cried over it again since I found out last week so that’s a plus.

I’ve really taken a huge step back into normal life since stepping down from my crypto project. It’s refreshing but I feel so different. I feel like I missed so much, crypto was my life for most of 2020 it feels like. It’s not depressing, it’s just kind of a “okay now what do you want”. And I know the answer but I can’t get it. It’s fine though, baby steps. Not everyday needs to be a glowing success.

Realized how much abandonment I struggle with going back to shortly after my ptsd event. All my friendships left me. Then most of my close relationships in my 20s have left me. I wonder what’s wrong with me. Genuinely want to get to the bottom of it so people stop leaving me cause I really don’t like it :/

I think I need to mind my own business more. When people are going through stuff I shouldn’t inquire, I should just let it be and direct them to alternate methods. I don’t think me being someone they can talk to is a good idea. Imo this isn’t really friendship but if I keep on down the path of what I think being close to someone is like I’m just gonna end up alone.

"people don't live or die, people just float"

• Bob Dylan

people tell me to get help when i have already and it's been ineffective feel they are a waste of time for me i get more council from speaking to randos on the net.

this doesn't apply to everyone and therapy can do alot of good and can accelerate people's recovery.

people can give you some of the most insightful wisdom oat but if you don't believe it seldom will it be effective at improving your life.

I deserve every bad thing that has happened to me and more. That’s why the bad things will keep coming and they will never end

na you don't g nobody deserves bad we all deserve love and affection despite any perceived flaws.

i’m tired

older i get the more apparent it becomes that i should have killed myself years ago

session tomorrow

i'm so pathetic lmao