@MZA it's not likely I'll be able to offer you a set of words that give you an epiphany or even necessarily hope rn and I know that because I've been there. But you have to focus on getting through the now by doing whatever you need to (even going inpatient - if you already have and that's why you're not itt now, we'll be here on the other side) even if it f***ing sucks. I'm type II bipolar and I have PTSD, OCD, anxiety, the works basically lol. It DOES get better. Your brain IS lying to you. Maybe it doesn't get better tomorrow or even in a year, but it DOES get better. Nothing lasts forever including pain. Not to say it doesn't have lasting impact but over time, it gets easier. You WILL eventually get to a place where things are manageable. Find the moments of happiness in life even when it seems like there's none and eventually your brain starts rewiring itself to react less intensely to issues. Not saying there's a cure for bipolar, per se, but that your mental perspective is everything whether your brain is "weird" or not. Never doubt the power of your own mind. That power let loose brought you down to this low point. But you can quite legitimately train yourself to harness that power and change your perception over time. Millions of people live in entirely skewed realities in their head their whole lives. I believe mental illness, especially if combined with psychedelics, often ends up with the individual breaking down the safety "wall" in our brains that "normal" people just have up naturally. I fully believe now that wall can be rebuilt to some extent, may have a couple bricks missing after but I don't think that's a bad thing. It can make you a better person. Just don't give up before you get to see that.
you better be right
Honestly think there’s more of a chance Kanye wins the presidency than OP is telling the truth .
Let’s just entertaining that the p*** s*** was real and even the getting the p***star pregnant s*** was real.(don’t believe this for one second) Who the hell makes a genuine thread about ‘how to get a gun in nyc Bc I wanna kill myslef’ on ktt. There’s so much in the story that doesn’t make sense and just isn’t even realistic
last post, if theres one thing ive learned its that this world is merciless and that's fine. we either fight until we die or we sit around until we die, the outcome is the same regardless. i've tried fighting for years but im tired of digging myself into a hole. i'm tired of hearing people saying they believe in me more than i've ever believed in myself. i don't want to be put on meds again, i don't want to rely on a therapist as my only friend again, i don't want to keep feeling like this. my school keeps spamming me trying to help me but i don’t want help, i hate that i even need "help" to begin with. this just feels like the only way out from all this, i hate how noisy everything is i just want to feel silence
.....wow man