Take it day by day bro, trust me it will get easier after time. Live for for the small things in life like music and your favorite tv shows man; there's too much to miss out man. And find a new therapist asap, because talking it out always helps.

a lot of people on here can try to help you. at least give it a few more years because you are so young

I might give therapy another shot since thats been recommended to me a lot but I just really didn't like it the first time I tried.

have you only tried therapy once? i think you might have to try a couple more therapists before you really find one that is the right fit. and you can also try different types of therapy if you think their style wont really help you

Yeah I've only tried once. I'll talk to my psychiatrist the next appointment I have with him

the truest advice i can give is that it doesn’t get better most of the time... it’s actually gets worse.

people always used to say, “it gets better” and in many ways it just simply doesn’t.

what is notable and worth living for is that you become more resilient and your threshold for pain becomes larger.

if you keep fighting the good moments become really good because you really know how good they are.

if you hold more value to your life and fight for something that you can’t see or something that isn’t real yet you can manifest something bigger than your reality.

but you have to treat yourself like you already have the things you are working for.

It’s important to learn most people dont deserve to have their opinion change how you see yourself

Definitely be honest with him/her since we aren’t professionals. You gotta tell them everything you’ve said In here and about your attempts

Accepted your request today btw

No way im telling my psychiatrist i attempted suicide how many times I did. I'd be sent to a mental hospital immediately and I've been there before and It's hell. I can't go through that again

How is it being in a mental hospital?

And ok I just thought it would better if you told them the truth. I would imagine it’s harder to help if you aren’t truthful to them :/

It's awful. It's cold as f*** and the bed is just some plastic on wood so you can't sleep at all. Every time I was there I never got any sleep and I always stayed 3-4 nights. You can't do anything but interact with the other patients, and I dont talk to people much so I just sat there really. You're stuck with a roommate so no privacy.

Really the only difference it would make is that they'd stick me in a mental hospital more often and I dont want that.

that’s always been my fear with therapy as well

they do it against your will? what’s that like

Yeah it's against your will. Just dont tell them your suicidal and you know how to kill yourself and you should be fine.

The first time they admitted me they told me to drive and admit myself or they'd admit me. The second time they had me arrested and thrown in

yeah nope, they be ready to load a nigga up w all types of d**** off rip

I was never put on anything new while in a mental hospital. Just kept there for my own safety. Thats more for psychotic patients. But then again I lied my ass off just to get outta there so idk

Gonna just buy a gun and hope I dont fail the background check

no no no bro PLEASE dont buy one

Bro what happened? What changed? Sometimes you’re good and then you get right back to those suicidal thoughts

Is it apart of being bipolar?

This entire day I was suicidal. I just stopped trying to hang myself cause it's pointless. I fail every time. I'm not trying that method anymore, I've tried for a year now. On to other methods now.

You’re gonna break a lot of people’s hearts bro, don’t. Imagine the look on your mother face when she sees you

But real s*** I wouldn't even say it gets better it just gets easier

Never thought i'd write a suicide note but now that i'm getting a gun i'm gonna write one

idp.nature.com/transit?redirect_uri=https%3A%2F%2Fwww.nature.com%2Farticles%2Fd41586-019-02133-2&code=4ec4ac1c-dd5a-4886-afe1-2872b5da6677

“ Nearly every scientist who has used mice or rats to study depression is familiar with the forced-swim test. The animal is dropped into a tank of water while researchers watch to see how long it tries to stay afloat. In theory, a depressed rodent will give up more quickly than a happy one — an assumption that has guided decades of research on antidepressants and genetic modifications intended to induce depression in lab mice.

But mental-health researchers have become increasingly sceptical in recent years about whether the forced-swim test is a good model for depression in people. It is not clear whether mice stop swimming because they are despondent or because they have learnt that a lab technician will scoop them out of the tank when they stop moving. Factors such as water temperature also seem to affect the results.

“We don’t know what depression looks like in a mouse,” says Eric Nestler, a neuroscientist at the Icahn School of Medicine at Mount Sinai in New York City.”

I just want it to end lol