Everyone gave up on me. Absolutely everybody

I have no idea where I'd b if I didn't drink insane amounts of alcohol

This past week has been so long cause i've barely slept

gotten 1-3 hours of sleep every day if I even slept

stop relying on it

that s***s poison fr

i may seem like an open person but literally no one actually knows me or has ever known whats happening in my head

it went ok for the first 20 years of my life but i feel like im gonna lose my mind i need to scream and let it all out w someone, all my friends tell me i can vent w them but i have mad trust issues

gonna find a therapist ASAP after lockdown is gone .

I hate myself

Facts man frfr

is it normal to have thoughts of suicide everyday? like its not a sad thought most of the time.

Today I was thinking about it as i woke up. Like if we had rope. I’m not going to harm myself but i just had the thought.

I have very high highs and steep lows. As I descent from the highs, i am met with crippling anxiety. The fall is too much

I wish I had a different life. Just my same body but a different upbringing and situation.

I wish he took that job in Hawaii or LA

im losing my mind.

5 years?? What in the actual f***

chill on my guy lmaoo

you’re headed down a much more terrible path then your on right now if you don’t get that sorted as soon as possible brother

I know it sounds crazy when you put it that way but depression can easily drive a person into the same position you’re in right now, but that’s not you bro

your depression and the s*** it makes you think and do is not you

When you don't have a job your job is to get a job. You need to start a routine and make job hunting a part of that. You need to dedicate x amount of time to it. Say you wake up at 8 every day then you dedicate 10-11 to job hunt or whatever works for you.