Ramen for breakfast

My mom is making Homemade Ro-Tel Beef & Cheese Dip later today

Hopefully I get to see my cousin today so we can match and catch up

I hate when people complain “I didn’t know!” about something that had been explains to them. If it was explained poorly you should have asked questions… there are some seldom exceptions to this, but man, for the most part people just need to take accountability for forgetting

Social battery depleted 😵

I finally get itttt

Single

When you see a picture someone took of you and your waves poppin

I wanna be the version of me in the mirror but on camera

Man I feel this

I always wonder which is the version everyone is seeing, is it the mirror version or the camera version(hopefully not)

@Vile Here you have the embed/formating thread in case you need it for the DG thread ktt2.com/embedding-and-formatting-1

Waiting for this queen to perform

prolly said it already but going completely solo has been a life changer, cutting off all da toxic vibes and energies

focusing on bettering myself, cause he be honest, if u attracted AND dealt with toxic folks, for very long times and even had them in your close circle

something about yourself wasnt right either
and some ppl can look in the mirror and change themselves for the better
others will just punch that mirror and keep this distorted and cracked version of themselves going

and this also propelled this more psychological thinking side of me to become more active than the best

where i know am AWARE that i am who i want to be and whom am supposed to be

and that keeping myself distanced from ppl allows me to access ppl easier and read who they are

now i no longer face my demons when out and about
but rather the demons of the people

as u always experience the world through your own eyes and those eyes of whomever ur talkign with

and its been so interesting just gathering up so much info about ppl
you learn alot about the world, specially in such a conservative area as mine, where am already a nuisance
i mean people dont even approach me in the native language lmfao they always come speak English to me... Which again was a very interesting new found

so its like the cultural/societal movement u start studyin and how certain demographics work and feel, how they react, what they fear/hate, whom they connect with, what they seek or desire etc...

its funny too, my producer called it the "collective consciousness"

but oddly ive become like the center of this spider web, specially in my hometown

where now the "nuisance" has become this person everyone can talk to, to put it simple

where ppl arent afraid to tell me i inspire them or how happy they get when they see me

so i very often have conversations, with alot of random ppl
from grannies to young kids, which only helps and makes this human studying case even more interesting and easier
and theyre always so relaxed, always happy and eager to talk
and most importantly theyre so open

i guess this sorta social distancing take on life i have going on now, really did more of the opposite than what i imagined
but the results are far more positive than i couldve ever imagined

being free in soltitude, away from dramas
dealing with hurt egos, demands, trusting etc...

not to sound like a depressed monster, but after awhile in life its like, ive come to an age, where i finally understand myself and the world better
i need this time alone, to figure it whole out, specially when most of your life you have been caged in big social groups
i know notice how much it hindered me, from who i was and what i couldve been

while now i no longer am sharing someone elses shadow of energy or dependant, am completely by myself, with myself, for myself as myself

and its then u see, most importantly
those that love you, admire you or like you
will rarely be the first to be open about it
they will admire from a distance, maybe to not risk losing that sparkle in their life

those who hate,envy are bitter etc...
will show it, first and proud
as they are keen to let you know, they dont value your presence very high

but its then another set of social dynamics kick, which i now understand and read better blabla

overall solitude concludes self study

its the camera version bro but i saw an experiment once where some photographer took portraits of people and then hung the pictures up in a gallery side by side with the same picture but inverted and had their family members come in and rate which one was better and every single family member always picked the non-inverted one even though we feel thats the uglier one its cause we are not used to it anyway some people like justin bieber have perfectly symmetrical faces so for those guys it doesnt matter some things are not fair but dont sweat it bro thanks for reading

i wanna join the 27 club this year

Any of you have BIG regrets in life? i have 1 that i know for sure its a regret

feeling like i should just lock myself away forever.

either that or im just tired today