Bro idk why but I can’t stop smoking weed. I need help.

Been having panic attacks this past month. It’s mimicking heart attacks and it scares the f***ing s*** out of me. Had to quit my job because of how bad it was. Also gained a lot of weight these past 3 months. 2020 took a toll on me.

You’re allowing it. Put yourself in a situation where it’s hard for you to smoke

F***.

I feel like I have cotton wool in my head lately. I think it's anxiety and some days it's absolutely crushing

This was my situation

My psych told me to embrace my emotions instead of running and try to understand where they come from

Like I got a lot of physical pain also some anxiety and pshyciatric type s*** but I'm realizing there's rly nothing to b afraid of we r all mortal and this pain anxiety etc is something you should dive into and explore without the use of d**** (excluding weed)

For me ultimately I couldn't do my job because of alcohol and the relief of being sober minded functional etc counterbalances the fact that I can't sleep and that I gotta deal with my physical pain and emotions.

D*** addiction can b a cycle so I get if ur in the cycle sometimes u need that but eventually u gotta just quit

When u get that strong sudden urge to take whatever substance jus get up go for a quick walk reflect on s***

This quarantine made me more aware of the mental damage that I have. I guess the busy life before quarantine was covering it up.

Physically and emotionally tired and stressed. Feeling sad for no reason lately

Hell. I'm already dealing with a lot emotinally missing and heart broken over my ex, i'm also very unsure of the future in regards to my living situation and this honestly isn't the time to be trying to make a big move. School is making things significantly harder. Everything happening to people all around me, friends, family, people who look like me. I'm in a lot of pain, so much to the point i feel as if im both suffocating and numb at the same time. I dont wish to be but I also pray for the strength to move forward. Ive been crying so much the past 3 months i cant even produce tears anymore but i can feel my body crying on the inside. Not trying to sound overly dramatic but trying to post how i feel inside my head.

love you nuj

Love you fam <3

Quite depressed

kinda empty

i also appreciate the congratulations

Mentally and emotionally content. And when I mean content, I mean as a person and my growth.

I am not content with the world but trying to put too much effort in that would be a waste and f*** me up.

Feeling incredibly lonely and stuck in place. Lethargic. Hopeless. Been drinking almost every night, which I never did before the virus. I have random suicidal thoughts occasionally but I never take them seriously. It's scary that they pop up though. That hasn't happened since I was in high school. Feels like no one truly gives a s*** about me, which is probably true to some extent. And then on top of that just looking at the country rn makes me feel like we're in the end days of America. So in summation not good.

Oh yeah I adopted a cat thinking it would help my mental health and instead she makes me feel worse because she's so aloof and the shelter told me she was such a sweet lap cat. I know that sounds like cats in general and I'm trying not to resent her or anything but I can't help it that s*** really bothers me cause it feels like the cat doesn't give a s*** about me either.

not so bad considered the time and personal s*** for me

Waiting for my wounds to heal as I fantasize about a better life.

It’s bad man. This stuff going on outside is causing tension and strain in every direction bruh. Feel like I’m being spread to thinly having to be everywhere at once

I feel like god

:(

I was on some positive s*** but this has been an impossibly bad week for me so it's whatever
Keep moving forward like cudi said I guess