the post is just normal english man

It’s nice that you’re proud of having synesthesia but where‘s the correlation to the s*** we discuss rn it‘s cool that you can experience art in that way. I’m not talking bout the pure feeling I’m talking about a***ytical approach/simply just understanding lyricism. I‘m not judging how people perceive s*** based on the vibe - you could for example obsessively love an Hispanic song without understanding s*** about it lyrically. Excuse me for coming hard for u before tho.

Seek therapy

How do you classify the information you perceive as "cliched unoriginal thoughtfilled inauthentic work" when you claim that you don‘t understand it to begin with?

You won an award as a child that‘s wholesome but c‘mon bro If you say you understand Pascal but not Kendrick‘s lyrics you simply just don‘t want to digest it cause it‘s not art without message/intention nor is it complicated like that

Ah you see maybe there was a disconnect there. I experience art in an intuitive way and I’m actually opposed to the idea of intellectualizing and approaching art with a mathematical mind. I have both minds but I choose to only use my intuitive mind with art but especially music! I think our ideals in reference to art are polar opposites.

I accept your apology tho, we all get mad it happens :)

lol I never said I don’t understand it. The masses may not understand it, but I can see clearly through the veil of pretentiousness and boring and uninteresting self importance of his music. I understand it better than most people lol and that’s why I don’t like it

I should. I have bpd but at the same time it allows me to feel music at an intense emotional level so… idk

Oh god you seem insufferable and very pretentious

It‘s all good bro. I also think the feeling is more important than the intellectual aspect but the discussion was mainly based on the technical aspect yk. Have a good day

Wtf

I guess you can say ppl with bpd can come across as pretentious sometimes, we usually have deep complex feelings about things and to ppl without it it may seem that way. But insufferable definitely lmao especially when I’m in my hypomanic state and you know what even when I’m super depressed too

Thanks man and I apologize for calling your post a jumbled mess or whatever I said.

Yup todays gonna be a great day I’m on my way to go get my ketamine treatment lol, I hope you have a good one too bro

this you? it go hard

Yea at first when I was replying I was actually talking bout the people who don‘t understand it not you personally - I probably should have said "If someone doesn’t understand …" lol - as the discussion progessed we made it unnecessarily more about you lmao but I think the buzzwordy post is good at expressing what I essentially meant with my first reply

dude is creating a persona on here post by post lol

After I quit heroin and fentanyl ppl would implore me heavily and constantly to “find myself” but I realized it’s about “creating myself” so yeah you’re kinda right lol

they all make the same music so you’re not missing out on anything

Meds don't have to ruin that. If that's a side effect, there's tons of other options with meds

You’re totally right. For the past 5 years I’ve tried every med there is witht no good results, with the only notable effect being a huge numbing of my emotions which is not good as my previous therapist referred to my intense emotions from my bpd as my “super power”

I don’t take anything anymore except for lamictal and gabapentin, though I’m thinking about quitting the lamictal cuz I think that s*** numbs emotions somewhat too. I’m on ketamine treatment twice a week rn. Is there any good meds you recommend looking into for unstable emotions, extreme mood swings, and heavy depression with suicidal ideation?

You are just an oldhead if you let yourself become one. I still enjoy new music from new artists cause I love music lol

Take your meds and talk through all your traumas. You can get your BPD under control, don't crash out like Kanye. It won't end the same for you, because you aren't a millionaire

Yeah bro all my life ppl have been saying that I remind them of kanye and that we talk almost exactly the same but yeah he’s rich I’m not it’s a giant every day struggle honestly. I used to wanna kill myself everyday before I started ketamine treatment. I always suspected kanye had borderline personality disorder he never seemed bipolar to me, so I can relate heavy to him except you know the being rich part lol

And I appreciate your advice seems like it’s coming from a good place

Good luck brother