Just wanted to vent

So I do have a slightly normal life (I guess?) have some friends, and a great supportive family. I don’t really have a lisp per say, but the flow of my words and even pitch of voice just sounds so f***ing weird. Even makes me comes off as “socially awkward” even though I do my best to be confident and be assertive too

What’s the most concerning part is not only it’s affecting my love life (Despite me only having one GF in the past), but my career too. My peers were successfully been able to get into good jobs I guess and meanwhile I have no success whatsoever. I briefly got a small, crappy internship last year remotely that was unpaid, but nothing since then. Have great resume too, but then I f*** up when it comes to interviewing. I’m scared if I’ll even end up getting a good job. Even my older half-brother admitted that the interviewers probably see me as some “laughing stock” and “incompetent”, also thinks I might need some surgery to fix this…

No lie I had slight suicidal thoughts, though I try to brush them off ASAP cuz it’s the worst thing to think about anyway.

I don’t even know what to do anymore, it’s just really f***ing s***ty to be born this way

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Wait I posted that before I read anything and now I feel bad

read that last bit

yea right

Do you fully pronounce your words?
How fast do you speak?

Why in gods name did you say that last part for

No thank you, my voice is EMBARRASSINGLY bad

Talk more about it

have u ever like done speech therapy or anything

maybe you should just learn sign language and say you're mute

wait that probably wont help with jobs

voice doesnt mean s***, look at mahomes

I've got a weird pattern of speech too from speech issues in my childhood but I think it's legit 95% of you focusing way too much on it. Now I don't know what you sound like but surgery is very invasive and should not be step 1.

Go get referred to a speech therapist if you really think you may have a problem. Which you may not even, it could be a unique inflection.

The main thing I gathered from this is that your confidence and self-esteem is getting rocked, which could be making you screw up in interviews and interactions. Not any potential speech disorder.

Everyone hates their voice OP. Sounds like there’s some more issues than that here though.

Best thing I could recommend is practicing. Speaking in front of people only becomes easier the more you do it, and after these pandemic years it must be harder now than ever. Might be worth talking to a doctor about to see if you can get a recommendation for a speech therapist.

I can’t imagine you’re truly incompetent based on your posts here, but I wish you the best and I believe in you.

You sound like you’re creating this belief about yourself

Snap out of it bruh. Stop saying your voice is awkward and it’ll stop feeling awkward

You overthinking it is probably making it sound worse then you really think it is

Earlier this year but it wasn’t much help tbh, might have to consider surgery even though it’s super expensive

No thanks

Just say it's not Walter White Jr level

dam

maybe pick up smoking and try and make your voice all raspy

Could be that, but I mean I always try to enter the interviews all confident but maybe the way I speak gives off the vibes that I’m awkward?

I could try that, does it even work lol

idk kinda

You gon answer my question op?

god i wanna hear this mans voice so badly now