Emery Atreides

3y

You nailed me to a Tee i think.

a problem I need to address is i am way too honest at times and stubborn in my positions but even then i always feel like i have been able to give leeway to conflicts.

amory

3y

yea people say ppl like us can’t self diagnose, yet they give themselves the power to make a monster out of you, just because you’re obviously hurting

like i said it’s a painful isolating experience but with proper healthcare and mindfulness you will come into your own

amory

3y

yes dude i’m the same way

i’m overly honest i think as a compensation for the guilt of lies (i had to lie to survive when younger) and just because it’s who i am! don’t let your honest be a weakness, it just takes time to understanding when’s an appropriate time to interject and when it’s better to just let things go...

but ye i feel being too stubborn. my expectations be so high of ppl but u gotta realize they just ppl. manage your expectations and you will be less mad at people around u

Emery Atreides

3y

you wanna know what’s insane dude? I swear to f***ing god, man it will piss me off every time i think about it.

I tell them i’m taking a 1 month mental health leave, i have a breakdown crying.

I trusted someone that i could update them on my progress

I update them, they talk with me

Another person sub tweets me to antagonize me, then blocks me

I tell this person that their significant other did this and then they say twitter isn’t that deep, sorry i “feel that way.”

Emery Atreides

3y

pretty sure i’m going to have to get use to not having friends by this point

I’m a f***ing mess

Emery Atreides

3y

pretty sure i’m going to have to get use to not having friends by this point

I’m a f***ing mess

DevilOrAngelFM

3y

You should definitely see a psychiatrist if you really think so. But if you need anything feel free to pm me

tunemoon

3y

I've given up on having any type of social life. F*** everything

Emery Atreides

3y

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”Behavioral: antisocial behavior, compulsive behavior, hostility, impulsivity, irritability, risk taking behaviors, self-destructive behavior, self-harm, social isolation, or lack of restraint
Mood: anger, anxiety, general discontent, guilt, loneliness, mood swings, or sadness
Psychological: depression, distorted self-image, grandiosity, or narcissism
Also common: thoughts of suicide”

I think i check the box for almost everything listed above besides self-harm, grandiosity, and narcissism.

I generally feel this has only gotten worse over time and i don’t feel comfortable talking to almost anyone about it because i feel like i just impact people negatively around me.

Noah Parker

3y

Self diagnosing is very difficult

There is a lot of overlap between personality disorders

But either way it sounds like you have problems and you want to fix them

Time to make some changes

• Exercise
• Low carb diet
• Meditation
• Journaling
• Therapy

If you do all of these you’ll make tremendous progress

Emery Atreides

3y

I’m doing exercise and therapy recently

gotta journal

Noah Parker

3y

that’s good

Try a low carb diet

Sugar in particular will give you all kinds of terrible mood swings

And try journaling

You’re already pseudo-journaling in this thread. You are trying to talk through your problems. Take it further. Write to yourself. Write what you think and what you feel

I used to have BPD or something like it. Proud to say I’m very emotionally stable these days. Good luck brother

Emery Atreides

3y

I wanna vent but don’t wanna freak people out in here.

le epic poster xD

3y

The great thing about posting anonymously on the internet is nobody is able to associate a name and face to the post so at the end of the day your judging the anonymous user on the internet not the real Person sitting behind the computer screen

amory

3y

yea that was me last year i lost a lot of “friends” but i don’t take it too hard bc i don’t think they were good for me anyway

the really good ppl have stayed and i’m content with the few friends i have they’re all really good people

another big part of this is managing your expectations. you’re probably a very sensitive person and require people who have a lot of patience. this inherently means you won’t be the most popular person in the room, but if you’re honest; doesn’t mean you’re the worst person !

Emery Atreides

3y

I wanna vent but don’t wanna freak people out in here.

KingGhidorah

3y

I’ve lost 3 close homies due to having an episode late last year and I haven’t been able to forgive myself for it.

Emery Atreides

3y

same :( I’m sorry dude

KingGhidorah

3y

that fear of abandonment really hits mane.

Dry Van

3y

The pills make it worse, if your depressed and delusional to a point we’re reality doesn’t feel real take em. But please don’t take pills cuz u anxious or feeling insecure