developed some unhealthy aggression lately

i had to leave work due to health related reasons, so the money dried up and I couldn't sustain it any longer, sadly.

Been in my running back all this year though already clocked 300m under my belt sh*t goat for conditioning so eventually i can see myself going back to a martial arts practice

Ahhh, ok. I got ya now, with me I just feel like I need to be financially stable and independent so that I can maintain those healthy habits/lifestyle that I’ve been wanting to live

the worst about this all is how unbelievably easy life is for me

i don’t think it’s possible for me to feel worse but there’s no tangible solution and ive tried everything

do you mean its easy cause you're rly laid back or cause you've got s*** figured out

the latter. i have a great job, i’m in phenomenal shape, eat a good diet, see a therapist, have hobbies, have a healthy social and s***life, so on and so forth. i never feel like i’m struggling in any aspect except for my mental health and i still almost never experience happiness, i self harm and contemplate suicide constantly

i think that's the aspect known as the human condition. our brains are much too powerful and aware to ever let us truly experience peace

We gonna be alright

i think you’re right and i’ve always suspected that was the case

but damn man it only makes it worse knowing that it’s not much more any of us can do

it makes sense to secure and maintain a comfortable lifestyle first.

i'm affiliated with a running group, but half the time i love running solo and it doesn't cost anything

Smart man I used to be into running as well but I stopped doing it as much and I grew older I love going for long walks on occasion though

I wish I could finish this leftover joint in my room alone and listen to some of my favorite songs

It's over

I am mentally unwell!!

im in hell but im about to take 200ug and see nudy later on lmao

but it never really began

long walks are a vibe too like especially when you've been inside for a prolonged period of time ⏲️ a couple of miles is

Facts

Deja vu

i wanna cry