loneliness will be the end of me

Let it all out. Felt good.

snowfall (slowed) is today's soundtrack

Bout to be on the same mood in two weeks. Bracing myself

Im in that space where sport isnt doing it for me amh

S***s hard af. The morning we check out of vacay to go home I always feel myself start to tear up lol

Some close friends about to leave at the same time I start working again so it will hit like a train tbh

This bipolar s*** ass. I don't got no motivation I forgot why I even do the things I do

Stopped taking my meds like an idiot and the withdrawal and nausea made me wish for death

I wanna kms so bad if I didn’t grow up with a fear of hell i wouldve BEEN gone lol. No real friends or family. Drinking it away everyday even as I type. I want to d1e so bad no joke

Completely sleepless night. First time in like 4 months this s*** sucks

I love my ability to take tormenting challenges and learn from mistakes to build my skill and character and relationships. I’m very proud of that about myself and I look forward to the new challenges on my mental health as I go into the new week. Oo wee he gon splash em

My body is tired
My mind is tired
My heart is tired
My soul is tired

But its not enough to quit

Alone again

corny but i'm about to purposely enter a deep depression for a bit so i can work through everything that's been building up

Bck in the mental health thred..

I did shrooms for this purpose and it honestly worked

Meds are so key. I believe in science

I hate myself and self compassion feels so alien to me. I can’t do it and everyday I feel uncomfortable in my own skin

About to have a rough ass night. My girl about to leave me for an argument and I just cant stop overthinking and blaming myself on what I couldve done wrong or different