Dam r doctors just passing out ativan now?
Im on about one a day, better than 3. Im gettin there

my work sometimes buys lunch for us and i never eat it cause i really struggle with my body image and feel like im gonna be judged by them when i eat. i know deep down they won't but the feeling that they will is greater than what i know to be true. but that creates another problem where they all notice that i don't eat and point it out which just f***s with my head and body image more.

in our thursday morning meeting, my boss said he was gonna buy lunch next week and someone said "oh, trash star won't be here that day" and then the entire conversation became one about how i don't eat and coworkers asking me questions about my eating habits in front of everyone. really f***ed me up and just reinforced all the negative feelings i have about how im perceived.

obv they aren't trying to do anything mean (they're all extremely nice people) but it just boggles my mind cause i never make comments about how other people eat or whether they do or don't.

i hope i die in my sleep. I wanna scream into my pillow but I can't wake the house up.

I understand you

They don't mean nothing about it. We don't think when we speak. At work? Less
Comments like this make me more mindful of the small talk I make

It's a small miracle to finally enjoy being me

And if this is all that there is
I think I'm going to be fine

One day I'll visit the ol brain doctor

OCD is f***ing ass

Like actual ass

i slipped thru qc i never should have been allowed to be

worse thing ever

Using tubi exclusives to numb my feelings

Things ain't the same for gangstas

bad day

wish i was normal

I joined the wait list for a d*** rehab center said they gone admit me end of May. Pray for your boy 🙏

Detox in 4-6 weeks, im bouta go dummy

Its getting worse too

Congrats thats great. Can i ask what u trying to get off of?

Coke, oxycontin, x****, ketamine, weed... anything but alcohol really lol. S*** got out of hand fr

cant tell if better or worse

I feel like Wellbutrin made me more dumb. I forget s*** quick af now. Even worse!

being bipolar is so weird

last few weeks ive been smoking 2-3 grams of weed a day, doing pretty much nothing every day, jus chillin playing pokemon

i havent smoked in 24 hours an i feel like a nuclear power plant is inside my chest, its 12 an i feel like i jus woke up, manic as S***

like this is rly a real disease wtf

good luck fam

i hate myself