Jul 7, 2020It seems like all one bad point
Saturday 💣Jul 7, 2020·edited·2 repliesIt was definitely in 2017 when I was ready to die. My apartment was raided by five strangers who held me at gunpoint and nearly beat me to death. I remember crying out to God until they knocked me unconscious. A week earlier, my girlfriend of two years broke up with me out of the blue. My family basically distanced themselves from me after I dropped out of college. I didn't have anyone. All I had was this idea that I was going to blow my brains out in a secluded area. The night before I was going to drive to the secluded area, my dad texted me that he was sorry for abandoning me as a child. We had a beer and I never mentioned that idea to anyone.
- Jul 7, 2020Saturday· edited
It was definitely in 2017 when I was ready to die. My apartment was raided by five strangers who held me at gunpoint and nearly beat me to death. I remember crying out to God until they knocked me unconscious. A week earlier, my girlfriend of two years broke up with me out of the blue. My family basically distanced themselves from me after I dropped out of college. I didn't have anyone. All I had was this idea that I was going to blow my brains out in a secluded area. The night before I was going to drive to the secluded area, my dad texted me that he was sorry for abandoning me as a child. We had a beer and I never mentioned that idea to anyone.
holy f*** man i dont know you but i love you and im proud of u i can relate to this
- Jul 7, 2020
when i was like 18 (very end of 2012) i slowly became extremely mentally ill and started to go all out f***ing crazy, i lost all of my friends and stopped eating i would sit in my room alone smoking weed listening to music and s*** every day all day and i was going to kill myself but for some reason i didnt and im very glad i didnt because things slowly got better, by the end of 2013 i was completely okay again, 26 still lonely but im okay now :)
Jul 7, 2020Some time after graduating HS. I cant remember what caused it but I was depressed as hell. I remember telling myself that I was gonna kill myself. It's scary looking back on it because i was so sure i was gonna do it..
Jul 7, 2020when police came in after complaints of neighbors about me yelling, breaking down and voicing thoughts of suicide and wouldnt let me be alone until my mother came home and suggested to her that I should be taken to a mental hospital probably
Jul 7, 2020All of 2018
2019
2020
Nuja 🫶🏾Jul 7, 2020Bar keeps getting lower. I'd honestly say from March until now.
- Jul 7, 2020·edited
2017 (20 years old) was a deep hole, domino effect of bad decisions from being cheated on by my girl at the time. developed severe depression and anxiety. still climbing out of it now but I can see the light and almost at the top
i needed the bad to better myself
Jul 7, 20204 years ago, I replied to a synopsis post for the first time
Jul 7, 2020Probably the past couple months and present for me. My life has never been this purposeless tbh. At the moment I only have two friends who I chill with maybe once a week, can’t find a job, so yeah it’s bad out here.
- Jul 7, 2020
Funny tho cus I’m not even as depressed as I have been in the past now I’m just crazy
Jul 7, 20204 years ago when I tried to kill myself, extremely glad I didnt
I still have the letters I wrote but dont have the heart to read them. I will one day
Jul 7, 2020prob around 2013/14 when depression first hit
looking back it makes you stronger but it's kinda s*** to lose years of your life because you don't know how to deal with it
Jul 7, 2020·2 repliesI been down so long it look like up to me
Jul 7, 2020damn this the s*** that turn u into a savage. hope u doing better man
Jul 9, 2020now
Jul 9, 2020WFHI been down so long it look like up to me
- Jul 9, 2020
going through one right now
bunch of medical issues popping up & broke
thought about.. the other day 
Jul 9, 2020My best friend and I were supposed to move to Cali but I changed my mind at the last second. Was living with a roommate from hell at the time, and one of my so called friends was gonna let me stay with one of his boys but he ended up scamming me out of $1000. Quit my job and ended up living in a hotel for a minute
Jul 9, 2020When I was listening to SBTH heavy on rotation
I felt like a sponge wrung out of all my emotions
Jul 9, 2020·1 reply
flyLovedated a girl most of HS. When i was a senior i was trying to break up with her at the end of the year before i left for uni. during the relationship there were a lot of red flags that she had some dependency issues, destructive behavior etc (stems from s*** from her childhood and relationship with parents)
anyway i break up with her, and later that day she goes to the police and submits false report saying i was physically abusing her. Next day at school i get called into the principals office, police are there to question me, idk wtf is going on. everyone in the hallways is seeing me get escorted down the hall by the police. i'm scared as f*** man. i'm black (she was biracial black x white), 18.. im thinking im about to have my whole future taken away from me.
long story short, i ended up lawyering up.. she dropped the charges about a week later (cause they were bullshit obviously lol) but the damage was done. she f***ed up my last 2ish months of senior year. That accusation s*** ruined relationships I had with teachers, friends.. my class schedule got completely changed cause we had a class together. i was too embarrassed from the situation to even eat lunch in the cafeteria. i started eating lunch in the library.
It's been over 5yrs and that s*** still eats at me a little bit every now and then. Luckily i went to college out of state and was able to leave that s*** behind.
B this is awful. Did she put in on record that she was smearing your name
- Jul 9, 2020Saturday
It was definitely in 2017 when I was ready to die. My apartment was raided by five strangers who held me at gunpoint and nearly beat me to death. I remember crying out to God until they knocked me unconscious. A week earlier, my girlfriend of two years broke up with me out of the blue. My family basically distanced themselves from me after I dropped out of college. I didn't have anyone. All I had was this idea that I was going to blow my brains out in a secluded area. The night before I was going to drive to the secluded area, my dad texted me that he was sorry for abandoning me as a child. We had a beer and I never mentioned that idea to anyone.
Bro...I'm so sorry for what you went through
- Jul 9, 2020
Not knowing how to handle depression in my teen years (coz I didn't even know black folk also could deadass get it)
Jul 9, 2020oh nawwww I wouldve been blastin that trap soul bryson tiller